im happy but im sad too

today quite enjoy i go out with chin soon to gurney on motorbike,its rare to go so far actually.

it's been quite sometimes i didn't go gurney le..today went back a lot of memories flash back,return to my mind.what i do in gurney with her,what i do with her on the stall.i told chin soon,the wantan mee stall that the aunty hahaxz..her expression when see her feed me eat.a lot of memory return to me..

i think im the only one who can't really let go of the past.

i saw a lot of couple,i envy them.but i do think among all of this couple how many will manage to survive till the end?to me i have to confident in love/relationship at all le.all i think is -ve.

but i do still really miss her.last time i want to stay close to penang is because i have my business running here,i don't want to go so far away.i part of it is,i want to stay close to......

eventhough i know it's foolish.but i really don't know le..haixz...

i should get some rest and think what should i do for dealing with my customer complaint le...

today i'm happy but im sad

i miss

Once there are a ladybird,"it" keep on bug me,i love "it",but my nature is scare of bug.
i chase "it" away,i scold "it" away,i push "it" away,i make "it" sad,i make "it" cry,i ask "it" to go away...

now "it's" gone,i so miss "it"..............i wish "it" would come back and bug me again....i really DO

im so down

today i have been nothing but watching anime,i got people order birdnest from me,i can't feel of anything.....

if last time when i receive order,i would jump here,jump there,wanting to find more client,earn more money,but this few days, i don't have such feeling....i feel so lost,so down.haixz..

i just don't know liao lah..i feel so stress,so helpless.i don't know which to go or what to do...

........................haixzx.........................

im back

if i said i stop studying universiti le what will all of you feel??

before is me who insists to not to study unimap,but after the registration is my parent who ask me to come back penang study loh...

this few day at unimap is quite enjoy eh lah..talk and meet a lot of new friend nu.

but i decide to come back study lah.i don't really like the environment there.

many thing happen there.i think me n chun hong is the 1st student can let senior drive us out to town,do our thing eh ba.hahahxz..

me have a chinese roommate but 5 malay housemate....yuck...haixz..on monday hahahxz..i very kacau at unimap.many ppms senior let me kacau...nt let me call leng lui leh toh si i call them endao eh...all ppms see tiok me like friends ane lah...since i so like to kacau them..

then when the tokoh giving speech,hahahxz the camera face me i banyak pattern on the video i think the whole hall people would see tiok what i done on the big screen gua....hahahaxzxz....we all clhs st on the 1st row n 2nd row,we laugh n talk so loudly. we don't give the tokoh face...and we say gok si lim guan eng geng..hahahahahxz..when got student ask him question and he don't know how to answer..we are the group that laugh the loudest gua hahaxzx....cham loh but don't care lah...

last night last day at penang all shit eh...the nasi lemak the curry overnight eh....walao eh...food poisoning. many of us vomit and stomachache loh...haixz..me until now still feel not so well nia...but now im back in penang le...decide to further my study in management lah....will find and see which is good for me lah...

hope i able to recover soon lah now feel like want to sick also le sleep for whole day long..body is weak...haixzxz.....ang gong po pi lah..

have a happy day and new life nu...wkakaakakakakxz

haix

im going to leave penang liao today.....what i reluctant about is i know what it is....

before i leave,what un my mind is about the grey box..i so miss the grey box what hidden inside the box..haixzx...i so miss ...

feel like crying le........

I

In my life i cherish everything ever come into my life....today i finally feel what is the feeling of going to separate with those so important in your life,FRIENDS.
i don't know why i will feel so,see them going so far away.eventhough i knew them just 1 years but what make me have such a strong feel with them is what they teach me,from a boy to a guy.from a naive to a mature man...i so like them,even all of us walk on different path now but life still have to go on.i so miss them...

hope when there are chance for us to meet again.where we all can walk on UPR,go esplanade eat and talk....i miss the time.....

friends forever.

what a day

today darren take his flight go canada for 2 years for his study...2 years seems long...haixz..

what feel pity is ah girl going uk this sept and darren go canada.haixz.both lovely couple.separate because of study.but i know this will make they become stronger.ah girl study for 5yrs.its quite long you know haixz..is time really able to go so fast?
i do wonder.

to say time never wait us,time run so fast,just a blink of an eye.how many second has pass by.say 9 month don't know what can be done,but now already 1st of sept..

today farewell very weird thing happen,cg ex also there.so gan gak loh.hahaxz.but still me n him able to chat n smile so happily...weird hahaxz...feel so wao...the situation is so paisei leh..but nevermind grown up liao..this thing happen a lot..today i know i be seeing her again,she don't really choi me lah..but i know d still i able to put on my smile and talk with all of them.im no longer the shy boy le..

ah girl got ask me see liao cg how you feel?good?me say ane lah..no sad or happy,but see she happy i ok le...hahahxz..see she taking photo with her beloved dslr 550d.hahahxz.so siok..

a lot of thing in my mind when i silence,i see and feel everyone feeling,sad,moody,reluctant,sorrow.all written on their face..see ah girl,jia wern them cry.darren eye watering.see his parent cry till haixz..i wonder if im the one flying will anyone come bid me goodbye?cry for me?i think no lah..i don't think will have..hahahxzz..

time never stop for anyone of us,we stop doing,we just wasting time.see all this i know each and every second is importent,thats why i so cherish every relationship,i have,friendship or what,i will always remember what i have before.

even me and darren not so know of each other still i treat him as bro.hope he will be doing well there...