just to think of what title should i put on is quite headache hahahxz.. It's been quite sometimes i didn't blogging. To say what is life actually mean? is it to be happy?to be enjoyable?i think non of us would think that way right? i just keep on thinking and wondering, what is the real happiness?do it have definition for it?
after a lot of thinking,after a lot of talking,i feel like something in my life is missing...there an emptiness that couldn't be replace...a lot of thing happen in this year,to say time goes around so fast,already almost one year le..going to CNY soon...
feels like i'm going to talk a bout girls again?partially yes....hahaxzx
within this few months,i feel like after start studying,all my effort have been cooked up,it's just lost in an instance,to say i really can't accept it..i like have to rebuild all over again..after this final exam,i have a lot of time i must pia.to make my dream come true..
currently my do a lot of investment until i don't really have enough money for myself to spend,hahaxz. But the good part of it is i earn a lot hahahxzx. People do says with money,you rich,you can do everything you want....i can get what i want,i get my nike,gonna get a new handphone,decorate my own room...all of this is just the luxury i want to get..but still there are something gone forever not likely to be replace.
This word NOT LIKELY TO BE REPLACE ,i do wonder why some people able to recover so fast when being hurt,i do wonder is it me the one that have this kind of problem or when they hurt this is what they do to recover.to forget?
Last night when on the way back to kampar i do talk a lot with andy,he said when you truely gave everything of you to someone,i likely for you to feel that is hard for you to love someone as much as the past or in other word,you don't have confident in relationship.until now to be frank i still miss her.i would be bluffing you if i said no.
Life is not always goes in the way we want,you think in future you would likely to be doctor but end up you maybe a businessman.when the course you choose sure there are many factor will drive you away from your course,in the way that you won't notice.some people would let the fate control,some people would want to control their own fate.to become what they dream of.i would want to that person,to make my dream come true.and part of my dream is you with me.
if life can be rewind,many thing i want to undo.adjust the past so i would be a better person,a better man.but this is just a dream,a dream that maybe in this life won't be coming true.
regret is the word i hate most....REGRET.....
