when i thought the biggest threat for me is my dad,he is not he ask to to think properly and if that is what you want then go.
now the three person that said go for what i want eh is the biggest threat,they is the one ask me to think what i want in my life,now they are the one want me to enter university go for some course that i don't like,what they said?one is 12k other is 35k++ triple the amount, ptptn can go for full loan and i'm the one paying it.i want for for the field that can help me in my future business.is it so bad?business is it a bad subject?you all say till like business no job,this is a business world and you said business study liao no use?then this world mah no need do business d loh.
last time i don't have aim in my life,i just follow what you all said enter form6,and now i know what i want to do in my life and you all still want me go for thing i know i from the start i don't want d eh.is it future hav'ta decide by parent but not us ourself? haixz.i know study form6 liao but not going to university is a waste,but still if i going into the thing i don't want and not the future i dream of.a lot of my friends found what they want to do in their future,and all discard the choice of going university le,why they can i can't?their parent also not rich,still they able to persue their own dream,while my dream have to be control by other?
i really don't know le.i really hope you were around,where you can help me analyse my problem for me..i really stress up.
Sunday, 31 July 2011
Saturday, 30 July 2011
so happy
this few days many thing happen,make me hard to breath.but i think within this few days can end it.
today i went to cg house,her mom fetch yan hong go basketball,me wait at their house,hahahxz.
i want to go see they play basketball eh,then cg dad going hahahxz..1st time uncle sit motor with his dad.is my 1st time.reach there,hahaha saw a bunch of kid play basketball.i think it's been centuries since the last time i play basketball liao.
so noob..hahahxz.i never expect the gina to cooperate with me,as a team with me.to say see the way they play i want to scold bad word..one word no training before eh...hahahxz
i play till leg pong pa..but i too long didn't play full court and is me run up and down eh.solo.@@
u will understand why my leg will pong pa and internal bleeding i step on the tiny rock pain until now....@@
7pm liao,
his dad come fetch us back..hahaxz i think the last time i sit motorbike in 3 person is standard6.his dad fetch me,yan hong.hahaxz..refresh of my childhood memory while i at kampung life..
then i so freaking tired and no energy to move a muscle i drank many cups of water.mouth dry until can't produce any saliva.hahaxz.whole body is shaking.
cg mom saw me walk gak ane ask me to show my foot to her...see tiok wao all pong pa eh...she immediately take medicine from the fridge,apply it for me..so touch.hahahxz.say why i keep on shake eh.is worst then last time gok.i say after exercise is like that eh..hahahaxz.
then she make a cup of hot milo for me and have a talk with me,she say me na lai na thin liao..like bo eat ane..last time got pong pao bin eh...now bo ki liao...hehehxz im HAPPIE.....talk with her about what im doing now and what is my planning.what i do for my study have i decided yet.have quite a long chat with her..
that time is almost 8.30pm liao.and i take my leave.although i see is just that few second,enough le.i don't expect too much le..let the time being..
still im so happy her parent still so good and care for me....
today i went to cg house,her mom fetch yan hong go basketball,me wait at their house,hahahxz.
i want to go see they play basketball eh,then cg dad going hahahxz..1st time uncle sit motor with his dad.is my 1st time.reach there,hahaha saw a bunch of kid play basketball.i think it's been centuries since the last time i play basketball liao.
so noob..hahahxz.i never expect the gina to cooperate with me,as a team with me.to say see the way they play i want to scold bad word..one word no training before eh...hahahxz
i play till leg pong pa..but i too long didn't play full court and is me run up and down eh.solo.@@
u will understand why my leg will pong pa and internal bleeding i step on the tiny rock pain until now....@@
7pm liao,
his dad come fetch us back..hahaxz i think the last time i sit motorbike in 3 person is standard6.his dad fetch me,yan hong.hahaxz..refresh of my childhood memory while i at kampung life..
then i so freaking tired and no energy to move a muscle i drank many cups of water.mouth dry until can't produce any saliva.hahaxz.whole body is shaking.
cg mom saw me walk gak ane ask me to show my foot to her...see tiok wao all pong pa eh...she immediately take medicine from the fridge,apply it for me..so touch.hahahxz.say why i keep on shake eh.is worst then last time gok.i say after exercise is like that eh..hahahaxz.
then she make a cup of hot milo for me and have a talk with me,she say me na lai na thin liao..like bo eat ane..last time got pong pao bin eh...now bo ki liao...hehehxz im HAPPIE.....talk with her about what im doing now and what is my planning.what i do for my study have i decided yet.have quite a long chat with her..
that time is almost 8.30pm liao.and i take my leave.although i see is just that few second,enough le.i don't expect too much le..let the time being..
still im so happy her parent still so good and care for me....
Thursday, 28 July 2011
fck up my life
is it everytime what i want to do in my life,you all hav'ta decide for me?
no body will know what going to happen tomorrow,i also don't know i will end up doing business.
i know i get engineering course is a good course,but i really don't like the life of engineer.is so lifeless.
but can't you all just respect what i want to do for my life,i know its safe cost,but i don't want go for the course that i don't like.
I know i'm clueless for what i'm going to do last time,but after study for form6,i know is a waste that people so hope to get a place in Local U,i get it and is engineering course,but i don't want.i really don't know i will choose this path of business.
you all like that i don't know how to speak up with you all.i don't even know how to start the conversation.arrrrggggghhhhh...shit gak pua si.haizx..
no body will know what going to happen tomorrow,i also don't know i will end up doing business.
i know i get engineering course is a good course,but i really don't like the life of engineer.is so lifeless.
but can't you all just respect what i want to do for my life,i know its safe cost,but i don't want go for the course that i don't like.
I know i'm clueless for what i'm going to do last time,but after study for form6,i know is a waste that people so hope to get a place in Local U,i get it and is engineering course,but i don't want.i really don't know i will choose this path of business.
you all like that i don't know how to speak up with you all.i don't even know how to start the conversation.arrrrggggghhhhh...shit gak pua si.haizx..
Tuesday, 26 July 2011
Tuesday, 19 July 2011
what is in my mind
just now i share with rachel ,my picture of her and me.hahaxz in my mind i feel so sweet.looking into the pciture of us..where i found that im soooooooooooooooooo FAT,i totally can't accept it.i can't accept it.
rachel said me n her got fu qi xiang..many people do said that.hahaxzxz..but everything is a part of my memory.
No matter how familiar we used to be with each other,as long as we are apart then we become strangers. 原来只要分开了的人，无论原来多么熟悉，也会慢慢变得疏远。
but i like this
A man who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is.
如果一个男人真爱你，永远不会丢下你，不管情形有多难。
i love this qoute..still many people ask me to move on,but still im waiting.even i know is almost impossible still im waiting.
rachel said me n her got fu qi xiang..many people do said that.hahaxzxz..but everything is a part of my memory.
No matter how familiar we used to be with each other,as long as we are apart then we become strangers. 原来只要分开了的人，无论原来多么熟悉，也会慢慢变得疏远。
but i like this
A man who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is.
如果一个男人真爱你，永远不会丢下你，不管情形有多难。
i love this qoute..still many people ask me to move on,but still im waiting.even i know is almost impossible still im waiting.
Monday, 18 July 2011
meaningful
just now have a talk with sin ying,he asked me about me and her thing.within the conversation,he asked something very meaningful.
"we you meet her,we you two see eye to eye,who the one avoiding?i answered:"me,i don't dare to look into her eye".then he said then is your fault liao.while breaking up you the one who is wrong.
and i admit is my falut..what he said is correct i admit is my fault.haixz.
"we you meet her,we you two see eye to eye,who the one avoiding?i answered:"me,i don't dare to look into her eye".then he said then is your fault liao.while breaking up you the one who is wrong.
and i admit is my falut..what he said is correct i admit is my fault.haixz.
Sunday, 17 July 2011
my mom hit on the spot again
just now i tell her last night i saw her,she said did her talk with you?did you feel anything?
my mom see my face,she said she didn't talk with you?i say mah ane loh.i can't do anything.
my mom said u still love her is it?i just silence for a while and say erm..then i said last night mah talk with her family play with her cousin.
then she ask she know what studied i said her parent know lah.im not sure she know or not.but know or not mah ane loh...it make no different.
my mom said at Uni there don't find gf liao.focus on your study,abo later kena again.if got don't bring back my dad don't like eh.i say i won't be finding GF liao.she ask because of her?i just glance through her eye.i think she get my message.
she said want buy house i said i will buy at Bukit mertajam area,she said you want mar?if in future you saw her marry,you want to sad again?i said nothing i can do what?if she marry to other guy i will wish her the best..but different story mar.there eh house is cheap compare to penang why want to buy penang house where you can get a cheaper house.even i stay near her,so?my mom said 看开一点.if you love her go chase her back,we won't stop you.we all accept her d eh.but if you don't,just focus on your study,pia your business ok le.single is always better eh..
i just told my mom,我已经看开了，能跟她在一起看缘份了。but really in my heart she really not my gf le.but is my.......
im so happy,my parent so dear to her.my mom just said this is love,you both start at the wrong time.maybe in future can,but you hav'ta wait her.i said erm.
after i talk with my mom,i have found my ANSWER..thanks mom for your support.i love you.even walking on that path will be very hard but thanks for have a heart to heart talk with me.thanks for letting me found my ANSWER.i finally found and heard the whisper of my heart.
my mom see my face,she said she didn't talk with you?i say mah ane loh.i can't do anything.
my mom said u still love her is it?i just silence for a while and say erm..then i said last night mah talk with her family play with her cousin.
then she ask she know what studied i said her parent know lah.im not sure she know or not.but know or not mah ane loh...it make no different.
my mom said at Uni there don't find gf liao.focus on your study,abo later kena again.if got don't bring back my dad don't like eh.i say i won't be finding GF liao.she ask because of her?i just glance through her eye.i think she get my message.
she said want buy house i said i will buy at Bukit mertajam area,she said you want mar?if in future you saw her marry,you want to sad again?i said nothing i can do what?if she marry to other guy i will wish her the best..but different story mar.there eh house is cheap compare to penang why want to buy penang house where you can get a cheaper house.even i stay near her,so?my mom said 看开一点.if you love her go chase her back,we won't stop you.we all accept her d eh.but if you don't,just focus on your study,pia your business ok le.single is always better eh..
i just told my mom,我已经看开了，能跟她在一起看缘份了。but really in my heart she really not my gf le.but is my.......
im so happy,my parent so dear to her.my mom just said this is love,you both start at the wrong time.maybe in future can,but you hav'ta wait her.i said erm.
after i talk with my mom,i have found my ANSWER..thanks mom for your support.i love you.even walking on that path will be very hard but thanks for have a heart to heart talk with me.thanks for letting me found my ANSWER.i finally found and heard the whisper of my heart.
last night
wao...
i overslept,where i suppose to go to jit sin for blood donation mia.but i didn't aikxz..so paisei to jia wern i promise her but i dint kept my promise..sorry ya jia wern.
the moment i wake up,i got a bad new i phone to my customer and got other idiot snatch my customer..shit him..haixz..so sucks..unexpected this will happen..DOWN..my face gak na guan gong ane for the whole morning.and afternoon..
then about 5.30pm i depart to bon-odori.ALONE.hahazx.find parking is so difficult,but i park at the shop where i get my birdnest..hahahxz
about6.30pm i finally reach esplanade.hahaxzfor that one and a half hour i was walking alone see people talking photo,so many professional dslr...hahahxz.i wish to have one on hand though.
there many couple,make me feel so lonely,but the reason i went there is to see back all those memories i had there at last year bon.I tried to search for the karate sensei.but he is not there.haixz.all the thing unchange.what it change is i walk alone.on the field.sit beside the seaside,see all the couple,where i sit at the place me,her and jia wern sit eh place hahaxz..think back,we all drinking yakult i think hahaxz..so sweet i mean the drink lah..
then finally at there meet up vct,kevin,steph and eric.have a lot of talk there,meet up with other senior.etc.etc.
maybe fate brought us together,i saw her cousin,when eric say u see the girl in kimono.and i recognize her,she bring me to see her mom and there i saw cg aunt we have a long chat..i bring their 2 little girl go buy mum mum.wao.wait for 25minute long.but its ok lah.
the fireworks start when they two finish buying hahaxz.the fireworks damn nice.when we start to walk back where their aunt was waiting for us.and there i saw her and her family hahaxz..i just realise i could play with her cousin so well and kept on kena suan siao that im short...@@ but nevermind im used to it..then talk with their parent.CG mom asked me you didnt come with your friends i saw no,u ka ki drive car come here?i say ya.alone ar??i say yes i walk a lone since 6pm till now.her mom give me a look like so make me feel so lighthearted ki.i just say its ok to come alone.the moment i felt that im so lonely.but its ok to me now.
seeing her keep on taking picture,ah rou keep on say why see that direction,got pretty girl meh hahaxz...im looking at her at a distance,where i don't even dare to go near her.im afraid.
Her mom touch my stomach and say why so thin ki??i say i lost 12kg ki liao.she said so thin for what?eat more mar.i said i want to keep a fit body.gak nice,i got so swim and gym eh.she thought i didn't eat again.hahaxzi ate alot.actually
then i continue play with her cousin,hahaxz.all so nice can talk,and they say last time i don't really like to talk now hahahxz...now i talk with them a lot like know for a long time liao.then about 10.30pm i toh greet them goodbye.
then i start run to where i park my car,i so paisei to that indian guy,i block his car atleast 5hours.@@sorry ya dude.
then me and rachel go to paradise there eh beach have a talk,we talk until 4.30am ane hahaxz..sit beside the beach talk.i so hope i can do this with her,but i know is impossible.
when i saw 2 shooting star in my heart i wish for a thing.i want to be with her again.rachel said wish liao will drean come true,and i do wish..deep inside my heart.i know i love her so much.even now.
see her im happy liao.eventhough i do miss her.but i do wish her the best.for all.i will wait her.
i overslept,where i suppose to go to jit sin for blood donation mia.but i didn't aikxz..so paisei to jia wern i promise her but i dint kept my promise..sorry ya jia wern.
the moment i wake up,i got a bad new i phone to my customer and got other idiot snatch my customer..shit him..haixz..so sucks..unexpected this will happen..DOWN..my face gak na guan gong ane for the whole morning.and afternoon..
then about 5.30pm i depart to bon-odori.ALONE.hahazx.find parking is so difficult,but i park at the shop where i get my birdnest..hahahxz
about6.30pm i finally reach esplanade.hahaxzfor that one and a half hour i was walking alone see people talking photo,so many professional dslr...hahahxz.i wish to have one on hand though.
there many couple,make me feel so lonely,but the reason i went there is to see back all those memories i had there at last year bon.I tried to search for the karate sensei.but he is not there.haixz.all the thing unchange.what it change is i walk alone.on the field.sit beside the seaside,see all the couple,where i sit at the place me,her and jia wern sit eh place hahaxz..think back,we all drinking yakult i think hahaxz..so sweet i mean the drink lah..
then finally at there meet up vct,kevin,steph and eric.have a lot of talk there,meet up with other senior.etc.etc.
maybe fate brought us together,i saw her cousin,when eric say u see the girl in kimono.and i recognize her,she bring me to see her mom and there i saw cg aunt we have a long chat..i bring their 2 little girl go buy mum mum.wao.wait for 25minute long.but its ok lah.
the fireworks start when they two finish buying hahaxz.the fireworks damn nice.when we start to walk back where their aunt was waiting for us.and there i saw her and her family hahaxz..i just realise i could play with her cousin so well and kept on kena suan siao that im short...@@ but nevermind im used to it..then talk with their parent.CG mom asked me you didnt come with your friends i saw no,u ka ki drive car come here?i say ya.alone ar??i say yes i walk a lone since 6pm till now.her mom give me a look like so make me feel so lighthearted ki.i just say its ok to come alone.the moment i felt that im so lonely.but its ok to me now.
seeing her keep on taking picture,ah rou keep on say why see that direction,got pretty girl meh hahaxz...im looking at her at a distance,where i don't even dare to go near her.im afraid.
Her mom touch my stomach and say why so thin ki??i say i lost 12kg ki liao.she said so thin for what?eat more mar.i said i want to keep a fit body.gak nice,i got so swim and gym eh.she thought i didn't eat again.hahaxzi ate alot.actually
then i continue play with her cousin,hahaxz.all so nice can talk,and they say last time i don't really like to talk now hahahxz...now i talk with them a lot like know for a long time liao.then about 10.30pm i toh greet them goodbye.
then i start run to where i park my car,i so paisei to that indian guy,i block his car atleast 5hours.@@sorry ya dude.
then me and rachel go to paradise there eh beach have a talk,we talk until 4.30am ane hahaxz..sit beside the beach talk.i so hope i can do this with her,but i know is impossible.
when i saw 2 shooting star in my heart i wish for a thing.i want to be with her again.rachel said wish liao will drean come true,and i do wish..deep inside my heart.i know i love her so much.even now.
see her im happy liao.eventhough i do miss her.but i do wish her the best.for all.i will wait her.
Friday, 15 July 2011
happy or sad?
today i got unimap,is good that i got polymer engineer.hahahxz this is the subject i wish to get though,many of my friends going there,shao jie,vincent cheah,say leong,ah eng,jessica,andric.all going the same place with me,wao i never expect to have so many people going with me.
but im worry for vcc,he fail to get any Uni.haixxz.worry for him a lot..
when i get unimap im happy because it quite near to penang though,but im quite sad because i can't get usm.I finally realise why i want to get into usm and want it to be so near to penang..i finally understand it.i don't want to lose sight of her.To say i miss her so much.a lot,even now.
It make me feel like im gonna lost her forever,even that now can say is lost forever liao,but in my heart even i don't really do anything but i still hope i can somehow,someway.
5 month passes by,still i miss her.
but im worry for vcc,he fail to get any Uni.haixxz.worry for him a lot..
when i get unimap im happy because it quite near to penang though,but im quite sad because i can't get usm.I finally realise why i want to get into usm and want it to be so near to penang..i finally understand it.i don't want to lose sight of her.To say i miss her so much.a lot,even now.
It make me feel like im gonna lost her forever,even that now can say is lost forever liao,but in my heart even i don't really do anything but i still hope i can somehow,someway.
5 month passes by,still i miss her.
Tuesday, 12 July 2011
happy wkakakakxzxz
just finish talk with popo,wao ah gong and popo went to hospital continuous 2 days le...
so happy finish after 5 month more le,just now go hospital check his liver,doctor said he recover le..just a bit oil cover his liver only...everything all green.so happy for him.but still can not luan luan eat nu..can hear popo so happy laugh till so happy.I also happy for her.thanks god.
Hope ah gong will be healthy forever hope his eye will recover soon...ang gong po pi po pi.
so happy finish after 5 month more le,just now go hospital check his liver,doctor said he recover le..just a bit oil cover his liver only...everything all green.so happy for him.but still can not luan luan eat nu..can hear popo so happy laugh till so happy.I also happy for her.thanks god.
Hope ah gong will be healthy forever hope his eye will recover soon...ang gong po pi po pi.
Monday, 11 July 2011
a nice piece of advice for me
刚搬进这个房子的那天，她整理完全部的东西，最后拿出一个非常精緻的玻璃瓶，对他说：“亲爱的，3个月内，你让我每哭一次，我就往里面加一滴水，代表我的眼泪。要是它满了，我就收拾我的东西离开这房子..”
爱没有合不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜..
男人不以为然，有点纳闷：“你们女人也太神经质了吧！就这麼不信任我麼，那还有什麼可谈？我让你搬过来和我一起生活，是为了照顾你，不是欺负你的！”
女人说：“ 好男人不会让心爱的女人受一点点伤，我会记录下我为什麼流泪，不会是莫名其妙的。”
“那好吧，抱抱～！”
两个月后，女人把那瓶子给男人看，说：“已经满一半了，在两个月内，我们是否有必要查看一下是什麼问题呢？”说完递了一本精緻的小笔记本给男人。
男人没有马上打开来看，他的表情里有一丝惊讶，还有点哭笑不得的意味，似乎没有想到..
女人的眼泪可以这麼多，盛得这麼快，又觉得女人是小题大作了，但是很可爱..
他打开本子开始看，惊讶女人怎麼写了那麼多。男人一边看著，女人一边说话：“第一次吵架，是在第3天，而且还是一大早，你刚醒来有点懵懂，挤的牙膏不知道怎麼的飞到镜子上了，那是我刚擦乾净的，我说你连挤牙膏都不会啊，你就来脾气了，然后吵起来..”
男人沉默著。女人继续说：“有天晚上我让你帮洗下那几件衣服，因为水太凉，你只顾著玩游戏迟迟不肯动，后来吵起来，我很失望你忘记了我的生理期不能碰冷水，委屈..”
“还有一次，我很累了，你还不肯去洗澡睡觉，明明知道我特敏感，有点神经衰弱，哪怕一点点敲键盘的声音都能让我难以入睡，我一情急就说了你这个人自 私的话，我们吵起来，你说了一大堆辩论自己不自私自私的人是我之后甩门出去上网通宵，我打你电话你没拿我又不敢自己一个人去找你..”
女人这时候有点激动了，眼球开始泛红，说：“还有一次..”
男人打断了她的话，“亲爱的，别说了..”
沉默.. 长久的沉默..
还是女人打破了沉默：“是不是我们真的不合适？如果是这样，结婚了还是会离婚吧？我们的个性都那麼强，谁都不肯退让..”
气氛有点尷尬..
本子里记录的事情都是那麼细小的事情，每次吵架的原因都是那麼的简单，男人看著这本子，似乎在体会著女人的心情，大男子是不会去计较这些小事，原本 觉得每次和好之后都没事，女人就爱拿这些来说事，但是当他认真去看的时候，他也开始难过了，女人很细心，把事件、心情都写了，还自己总结了一下原因。原来 最微小的事情累积起来是很让人痛苦的，他看得出，女人从失望慢慢变成绝望..
他想，大概是因为每次吵架，两人都是喜欢在吵架中找出对方不爱自己的证据。他突然意识到，这是个很严重的问题！而且每次吵架，双方都是在心情不稳定的时候，就是还有别的烦心事的时候，把不好的情绪带进了两个人的生活里..
“亲爱的别难过..” 男人终於说话了：“我请个假，我们去旅游吧。”
他们去了第一次一起旅游的地方，太多美好的回忆被唤起，原来彼此是那麼深深地爱著对方，这时的女人特别温柔，这时的男人特别体贴。
“亲爱的，你还认为我们结婚的话，会离婚麼？” 男人问。
“我想不是我们不合适，像现在，我们是那麼快乐，一切都那麼美好，可是一回到我们的现实生活里，为什麼就变了呢？”
“亲爱的，难道我们现在不在现实里吗？”
“.. ..” 女人楞了。
“因为那时候我们都把注意力集中在负面的事物上并且放大了那些负面的心情。并且喜欢找对方不爱自己的证据，然后彼此个性都很倔不肯服输太要面子..”
女人觉得确实是如此，原来，双方只是需要一点点忍让，一点点包容。男人带她回顾这初次旅游的地点，是真的用心了，想起那时候他们在一起还不久，为了让对方觉得自己好，都表现出自己最好的一面..
“还有半个月，如果那瓶子还是半瓶，那麼，亲爱的，嫁给我吧！”
女人钻进男人怀里笑开了顏..
后来他们结婚了。很少再吵架。如果粗心的男人不小心碰掉了杯子，女人不会再开口就骂，因为在女人开口之前，男人已经在道歉，说对不起，都是我不小心 的，赔两个给老婆！老婆儘管去选你喜欢的！女人就笑了，然后说，不用买啦，反正还有杯子，再说也不都是你的错，怪我自己没把杯子放好，让你碰到啦！
原来真的没有合适不合适，
只有珍惜不珍惜，
能一起走一起进步是幸福的..
its always too late for something if you don't realise it earlier......and it all goes to me....
爱没有合不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜..
男人不以为然，有点纳闷：“你们女人也太神经质了吧！就这麼不信任我麼，那还有什麼可谈？我让你搬过来和我一起生活，是为了照顾你，不是欺负你的！”
女人说：“ 好男人不会让心爱的女人受一点点伤，我会记录下我为什麼流泪，不会是莫名其妙的。”
“那好吧，抱抱～！”
两个月后，女人把那瓶子给男人看，说：“已经满一半了，在两个月内，我们是否有必要查看一下是什麼问题呢？”说完递了一本精緻的小笔记本给男人。
男人没有马上打开来看，他的表情里有一丝惊讶，还有点哭笑不得的意味，似乎没有想到..
女人的眼泪可以这麼多，盛得这麼快，又觉得女人是小题大作了，但是很可爱..
他打开本子开始看，惊讶女人怎麼写了那麼多。男人一边看著，女人一边说话：“第一次吵架，是在第3天，而且还是一大早，你刚醒来有点懵懂，挤的牙膏不知道怎麼的飞到镜子上了，那是我刚擦乾净的，我说你连挤牙膏都不会啊，你就来脾气了，然后吵起来..”
男人沉默著。女人继续说：“有天晚上我让你帮洗下那几件衣服，因为水太凉，你只顾著玩游戏迟迟不肯动，后来吵起来，我很失望你忘记了我的生理期不能碰冷水，委屈..”
“还有一次，我很累了，你还不肯去洗澡睡觉，明明知道我特敏感，有点神经衰弱，哪怕一点点敲键盘的声音都能让我难以入睡，我一情急就说了你这个人自 私的话，我们吵起来，你说了一大堆辩论自己不自私自私的人是我之后甩门出去上网通宵，我打你电话你没拿我又不敢自己一个人去找你..”
女人这时候有点激动了，眼球开始泛红，说：“还有一次..”
男人打断了她的话，“亲爱的，别说了..”
沉默.. 长久的沉默..
还是女人打破了沉默：“是不是我们真的不合适？如果是这样，结婚了还是会离婚吧？我们的个性都那麼强，谁都不肯退让..”
气氛有点尷尬..
本子里记录的事情都是那麼细小的事情，每次吵架的原因都是那麼的简单，男人看著这本子，似乎在体会著女人的心情，大男子是不会去计较这些小事，原本 觉得每次和好之后都没事，女人就爱拿这些来说事，但是当他认真去看的时候，他也开始难过了，女人很细心，把事件、心情都写了，还自己总结了一下原因。原来 最微小的事情累积起来是很让人痛苦的，他看得出，女人从失望慢慢变成绝望..
他想，大概是因为每次吵架，两人都是喜欢在吵架中找出对方不爱自己的证据。他突然意识到，这是个很严重的问题！而且每次吵架，双方都是在心情不稳定的时候，就是还有别的烦心事的时候，把不好的情绪带进了两个人的生活里..
“亲爱的别难过..” 男人终於说话了：“我请个假，我们去旅游吧。”
他们去了第一次一起旅游的地方，太多美好的回忆被唤起，原来彼此是那麼深深地爱著对方，这时的女人特别温柔，这时的男人特别体贴。
“亲爱的，你还认为我们结婚的话，会离婚麼？” 男人问。
“我想不是我们不合适，像现在，我们是那麼快乐，一切都那麼美好，可是一回到我们的现实生活里，为什麼就变了呢？”
“亲爱的，难道我们现在不在现实里吗？”
“.. ..” 女人楞了。
“因为那时候我们都把注意力集中在负面的事物上并且放大了那些负面的心情。并且喜欢找对方不爱自己的证据，然后彼此个性都很倔不肯服输太要面子..”
女人觉得确实是如此，原来，双方只是需要一点点忍让，一点点包容。男人带她回顾这初次旅游的地点，是真的用心了，想起那时候他们在一起还不久，为了让对方觉得自己好，都表现出自己最好的一面..
“还有半个月，如果那瓶子还是半瓶，那麼，亲爱的，嫁给我吧！”
女人钻进男人怀里笑开了顏..
后来他们结婚了。很少再吵架。如果粗心的男人不小心碰掉了杯子，女人不会再开口就骂，因为在女人开口之前，男人已经在道歉，说对不起，都是我不小心 的，赔两个给老婆！老婆儘管去选你喜欢的！女人就笑了，然后说，不用买啦，反正还有杯子，再说也不都是你的错，怪我自己没把杯子放好，让你碰到啦！
原来真的没有合适不合适，
只有珍惜不珍惜，
能一起走一起进步是幸福的..
its always too late for something if you don't realise it earlier......and it all goes to me....
Friday, 8 July 2011
after see tiok someone post
i just realise 2 more days will be kai shin b'day and 2 more days means me n her break up for 5 month le....if didn't see her post just now i didn't really notice it going to be 11th again this month...hahahxzx
i think i will go through it eh...let it be the the flow goes with it
i think i will go through it eh...let it be the the flow goes with it
Tuesday, 5 July 2011
happy
last night i found out i less gak 58kg ki liao....hahahxzx...all the running the swimming,gym,all the effort pays....wkakakakx
most importent is my waistdrop liao i think less than 30 liao....i think is 28 something....because my 30 eh plans keep on want fall off liao.....hahahxzxz
see all those picture uploaded by andrew so siok. very nice..he good in taking photo i love the effect,that small camera ca do till so nice effect so nice...hahahaxz..last night have a nice day eventhough whole body injurt liao....
Next stop mengkuang....
most importent is my waistdrop liao i think less than 30 liao....i think is 28 something....because my 30 eh plans keep on want fall off liao.....hahahxzxz
see all those picture uploaded by andrew so siok. very nice..he good in taking photo i love the effect,that small camera ca do till so nice effect so nice...hahahaxz..last night have a nice day eventhough whole body injurt liao....
Next stop mengkuang....
Monday, 4 July 2011
1st korean song i listen to,thx to rachel
the lyric is so nice......it show what thing i regret most....reflect out what had always keep in my mind.
malhan jeog issnayo geudaeleul salanghabnida
dasi malhabnida geudael salanghabnida
Sunday, 3 July 2011
it's been a long time
Wao today is a great day is it?a great start?many thing i haven't done yet wake up 2nd thing in my mind is all my business stuff..
But for the 1st thing is?
It been quite a long time i didn't dreamt about her,i think for last night,a whole night long i dreamt about her.In the dream i remember it very well,all i do is see at her and say out every single words that lay at the bottom of my heart that i have kept it away.
Is it a good dream or bad dream?when i wake up make me miss her again,but that dream make me feel so warm and like it granted me a wish came true in my dream i can say it out what my heart felt.
haha,it like so lame,to feel so.but i have learn to feel sastify.I'm happy i have her once,where our heart are truely connected,its more than enough.The 1years and 8 month trip,many sweet and sour memories,have changes my life a lot,from a boy to a teenager,finally a man.not for her,i think in my life i won't really strive for the thing which i think is importent to me,i won't strive for my future.In my sales treory,i always said:"YOU GIVE,YOU GET".
In our life,there are many strangers passing by,in and out from our life is a never ending.To reach his or he turn,no one knows,fate and faith will bring us along.Have faith,everything will comes along when the times come.
But for the 1st thing is?
It been quite a long time i didn't dreamt about her,i think for last night,a whole night long i dreamt about her.In the dream i remember it very well,all i do is see at her and say out every single words that lay at the bottom of my heart that i have kept it away.
Is it a good dream or bad dream?when i wake up make me miss her again,but that dream make me feel so warm and like it granted me a wish came true in my dream i can say it out what my heart felt.
haha,it like so lame,to feel so.but i have learn to feel sastify.I'm happy i have her once,where our heart are truely connected,its more than enough.The 1years and 8 month trip,many sweet and sour memories,have changes my life a lot,from a boy to a teenager,finally a man.not for her,i think in my life i won't really strive for the thing which i think is importent to me,i won't strive for my future.In my sales treory,i always said:"YOU GIVE,YOU GET".
In our life,there are many strangers passing by,in and out from our life is a never ending.To reach his or he turn,no one knows,fate and faith will bring us along.Have faith,everything will comes along when the times come.
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