all the sudden

is been quite sometimes since the last time,i been having this kind of feeling...

after back from the apartment stay,to say my mood not that good.because my money kena cheat but all of them know i hardly to get the money back but still they all act stupid and return the amount...but i don't want think so much so just ignore it lah.but luckily my htc ok back d..but still i worried about her(htc wildfire)

then after fetch john n moy back home,i back home do some stuff then go QB cimb,i think of running few bank to do some transaction eh.but...i reach cimb by 2.59pm.i waited until 5.43pm..i almost gila ki.....shit...so many people....haixzzzzx..

between that time i say a girl,she wearing the same shoe that she have.hahaha i toh start think of her d,then when she take out her purse,i saw the picture,it remind me of when are still together.....haixz i miss that time so much..

apartment stay i see my friend, bernard, john, chinsoon when the talk with their GF it remind me of what i done,when she call i will go some place,talk with all of what all the thing i had done,all the joyful laughter.it reminds me a lot of thing..

after finish all the payment.my stomach start to sound.....hahahahxz.i didn't in a single thing since morning.when i enter Q breeks,i saw to young couple eating inside,i feel so haixz.not feeling to enter but no choice lah..the cheapest food is there....@@..
sitting alone facing the opposite chair which is empty,while waiting of food i make me feel so haixz..why all why will turn up like that.so hope everything can back to normal but is it able to happen?

in my mouth i do say single is better where there are no boundary or chain holding you,but in my heart i still hope that she is the one that willing to chain me up...
i just so damn miss her...

all is in my mind

Just now my mom n sister mention about her again..ask how is choygin?is it she have bf liao?i say i dont know..my mom toh scold me le.toh si lu eh kuan...choy gin gak mai lu...so nice eh girl also beh hiao cherish...its very hurt you know..

haixzx.make me miss her again....i miss her again..AGAIN

missing something

finally im back penang,all the driving make me sick. i think i improve liao..because i dont feel sleepy at all...hahahaxz...

today i went to many places.and a lot of thinking today.thinking of her.the rainy day along the highway,remind me of the day when me driving kancil,and she sit beside me back from alor setar from my sister wedding.that day back the rain was heavy,the weather so dark and i couldn't see a thing.she also afraid of me because i have night blindness i couldn't see well.she hold my hand while i'm driving and feed me eat some snack.on my handphone with some music to make sure i stay awake.

then my mom call ask me to stop at the perhentian because the rain to heavy,she lay on my shoulder.and we both wait the rain lesser then move on,the warm hearted feeling.The feeling give by someone you love and you care,is really the greatest gift.

after the rain grew smaller,we move on back to penang,on the road im not really happy,i don't even want to drive fast.because i know the faster i drove,the lesser i will be seeing her.

when almost reach penang,my heart feel so sore,sad.almost reaching her house make me so down.still i know i hav'ta accept it.finally i reach her house,at there i eat some leftover.but its nice im so hungry that time.after eating,i went up to her room.i hug her and cried because its going to be 1 month+ im not be seeing her,because of stpm.i so miss her.i cried like hell,she cheer me up like im a small boy,but still i miss that day.i hug her and kiss her for so long the feeling never left me.

i so miss her,i miss her so much for all the sudden.don't know how is she now.i hope she fine.i know even i have move on with my life,but my heart still stay waiting for her. i miss her

i love you

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.."

the notebook

<a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/15931.The_Notebook" style="float: left; padding-right: 20px"><img alt="The Notebook" border="0" src="http://photo.goodreads.com/books/1299206637m/15931.jpg" /></a><a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/15931.The_Notebook">The Notebook</a> by <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/2345.Nicholas_Sparks">Nicholas Sparks</a><br/>
My rating: <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/show/196860005">5 of 5 stars</a><br /><br />
the best book ever,i always live in a fantasy of true love,even im 20,there is a girl i so in love with,we break up once and we together back again,back of my naive make her tired,she left me again.but still i love her.this story motivate me a lot.i believe if i waited and never give up,one day i will wait her back to my side.nicholas spark your movie,you novel are marvelous
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the notebook

this movie is so nice...

i cried after watching this movie.it refresh a lot of my memories,it says that we will always remember our first 1st,but really even she not my my first but when im watching that movie all my thought is about her..

the notebook is a very nice movie.i love it so much..make me so miss her...so damn miss her

the memory is never gonna forgot

hear this song make me think back a lot of my past,the time i court girl,the only memory i thinking is her.how i court her.

all those memory make me feel warm heart.so nice.so miss it.make me feel i really able to love a girl,and how she change me.i so miss that time.miss it a lot.