^V^ or T.T

Maybe for the past event until now i don't really dare to step into another relationship, everytime i just back off.
hahaxz i can very close with the girl when chances came upon me, i'm the one ran off and that's always the end of the story..
What actually is in my mind?is it suppose to be ^V^ or T.T? i really wonder.
then end of that one,i still go for other girl then the result same i back off again..my mind is stir up with a lot of complicated stuff which i also don't know what i really want.
Confusing?yes i am.