what's in my mind

As we grow older,we have our own way of thinking. We grow up through experience,learn from what happen around us and apply to our daily life.

to say there is something i really can't get it,why other people family, they can smile and talk with their father so nice,can hug and even they can tell him what is happening and what does trouble in him(son).

I really can't get what do he want he want from us.he sick and i do care, we all do care,ask him to eat med go see doctor and he doesn't even listen to us since we have repeat so many times and he doesn't give a fucking damn about it, and it's normal that we eventually lazy to repeat ourselves, you already so old and what should do and not you should know very well and what you said just now? we all don't care you this and that? WTF? if my mom and sis not there,i seriously want to ask him then when we are young what do you do to us? when we small you shout and scold we ok lah.but now we all 20+ liao.you thought shouting scolding, will do the job? it just make us feel that you very irritating, shouting to the neighbour to hear what you simply split out is very nice is it?

i really no mood and now i don't even look at him if possible, don't really feel like talking to you.The moment you went out to work i really feel peace. No more shouting,scolding but only hear the laughter of my mom, sis and my darling baby boy.

if im not the only boy in this house,seriously i would like to leave this place with my family beside him. seriously i really tired with him.I really tired..