enjoyable day...

12pm++ reach alphine tower..............go swim almost 4hour......wao.......siok niii.....today got a special member join in.......that person....finally know how to swim but she dont know how to breath.....@@

her name is stephanie.........teach her...want teach till vomit blood.......hahahaxzxz.........enjoy swimming.....atleast i know how to swim frog style le..@@ hahahxz.....finally......

go for gym 1 hours more...learn many hardcore way........muscle almost tear off apart........but train to have nice body cut.......hahahxz.....me so noob only can lift up 2.5kg.......haixz.....

a bit suey......dont know how chee chiang smart....puncture....i know how to lift up the car....know the way to take out the tyre but...dont know why we all dont have the strength to unscrew it....i think i can burn out don't know how many calories le......just to unscrew it.....maybe toward SMART,im too STUPID to le.......the foreman reach and so easy he unscrew it le.....wahh......think of it we so useless.....haixz....more cham is stephanie....dont know how pi let the exhaust pipe burn.......really cham....that part bruish.....cham loh...

then wait for chee chiang to prepare his thing we depart at 7.30pm......go town find wah chong le....down to autocity......hahahxz..siok nu....

 at machalister road.......taken my stephanie....

 our big boss........endao leh

 see act innocence,as always when take photo with me...@@

 endao vct......next stop tambun ya

 leng lui.......keep on geli my whole body eh.......beh tahan

 my kimuchi ramen....eat tillllllllll sien.....why i still order it??because it spicy.....but it fail my tongue

 we all almost finish eating le

 pity some girl......havta eat mine....her set so come so slow

 act leng lui ar......

 when going to mcd to order food......chee chiang stomach really big


at there really dont know what to eat....sien....end up lazy to choose i decide takehana.......haixz......boring....the service there got bit sucks.....lucky im in a good mood....i didn't let her kena....but got a new waitress...haixz...chee chiang play her till haixz..pity her......but ok lar...today enjoy the day...hahaxz...after this now MAY le......where i havta stop and pia my sales le..........less enjoy my day le...

reason

what the reason i so like to sit beside the beach,enjoy the sea breeze??

last night have a enjoyable night with chee chiang.....we watch THOR.......super nice.....wait for its next episode....don't know what loki is up to....with the cube.....

after that we go to 姓周桥 eat a few stick of lok lok.....i saw a leng lui.....she capture my eye sight.....hahahxz....but just see nia loh.....dint go flirt....then next destination to heng ee area.eat a lot of food....yum yum....nice....the last place is to the beach beside QB.........

i realise why i so like to be at there le....without any thinking....i just say out,last time when i dint dare to bring her back to see my family,we always drive beside the beach and sit inside the car.....a lot of memory there...maybe thats why i like being there is so enjoy and relax...i love the feel.....so nice......

last night when fb change their chatbox n message system.....al the message i chat v her before...all pop out again....make me think more,see it back really miss her le....but nevermind lah....all i can do is think.....nothing else....

to say i really hope she will give me a chance to be friends with her again....atleast we able to chat again....but need time....what chee chiang told me eh idea is not bad but....i don't know how to proceed it.......hahahxz.....

let it be lah......so long le......the miss toward her still so strong....all need is time ba...

regret

just now meet with my upline...miss peng....she told us many that life is all about...i very agree with what she said...with laugh all the way....what she said really got her point since she been in this world longer then us...what she seen and experience we cant denied....

there are one thing she said.........if you two have gf or bf....this you too need to know....you both sure is a different person.since you two born from different mother what your thinking and attitude sure different...when you two plan to have a long term relationship both also have to tolerate each other....因不认识而在一起，而因认识而分开......many couple or even those married couple also face this problem....so both have to tolerate each other weakness or try to change......

what she said really good......she have her point....but it hurt me....because this is what i most regret....because of my naive...my egoness....left me with regret......REGRET......

我飞故我在

有一种期待，叫做未来

爱笑的眼睛

如果不是那镜子
不像你 不藏秘密
我还不肯相信
没有你 我的笑更美丽
那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切的 比你说分手彻底
泪湿的衣洗干净 阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心 明天起只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你 我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛 流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛 再见爱情
我一定让自己 让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净 阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心 明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替
离开你 我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛 流了泪
当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己
那爱笑的眼睛 再见到你
我一定让自己 让自己坚定
离开你 我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛 流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛 再见爱情
我一定让自己 让自己坚定

再见到你
我一定让自己 假装很坚定



i love this song...just now at station one....seng zhi sang this song..really meaningful song to me....i remind me...to be strong...

neway again....

 endao ba vincent tan.....sing til so.........tou ru

 new singer....stephanie.....the one older then me eh....hahahxz hope she didnt see this....abo she gonna langgar me with her just pass P lesen.......wkakakaxz

 camera can take this purple light where it should be red....

 sing gak high le

 looks like a lovely couple,,,hehehexz...butt they are not..

 leng lui n leng zai

 this the way taking pic lah..stephanie

 our late comer......mr.yew.....

 yam lou...come in sit n hear song for free.....we have to entertain him haixz....no surcharge....

hahaxzxz siok.....chee chiang eh....parking ticket....is free.....1st time in my history that i see parking at qb is free......hahahxz...lucky for him....but the ticket jx cost rm1 nia....@@ hahahaxz...today sang till so enjoy.....love this life

what are words

what are words if you don't really mean them when you say them??? it means lie....

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

meaningful song......hahahxz......

the other girl

last night when i look through my contact,i saw a girl.....which last time i siok before eh.....
then i msg her,chat a lot with her last night.....she said i change alot jor....hahaxz...

i got bit flirty,say want chase her....but she said...she know my style,because she is one of my best girl friends....even i didn't contact her for so long....she know i can't really forgot her....she know i love her a lot...hahaxz...but,i told her her heart not mine le,she siok tiok other guy....she just said love toh chase.....bo leh change target....easy..but i know that not your style...@@

everytime i said i want to give up,but my heart tend to stop me.....need more time ba....

left or right??

to say lah...maybe is the pain she gave me.......i don't even have the guts to have direct eye contact,or speak with her...

i wish to see her..but i don't have the guts....when she far away i rather watch her through a distance.but when she close by,i just lower down my head,keep on pretend im busy sms,keep on looking other place....

i just told her maybe from f3 christmas eve that night,really we just meant to be friends after all....i just can't face her for now le....maybe when that night i put down the ring for her and i leave,maybe is that night where i start to give up....to rest le....i wish to do many thing to her....many things pending that i want to do for her.....but no matter how i think there will be no ending.....right??maybe after struggle for 2 month this comes the time for me to put it down le lah....eventhough i miss her...but in my heart i know im afraid of her le....thats why i avoid her ba...

life have change when she leave.....all things restart..can i walk on the path that not the one i used to like about it,but it give me new life and experience....i thank her for this.....

maybe all i need is a long rest......

virgin???

so many ego guy(eg.me)hahaxz..to say many people can't accept that their gf or the one the love is not a virgin...(included me),to say virgin is a sensitive issue to me.....last time...LAH.....

i asked a lot of guy before,many answer given to me,all in different form and STYLE

guy A:no i will never accept that.(heard that a lot)
guy B:NO WAY,i can not a virgin but she must be a virgin
guy C:if she choose to tell me from the beginning maybe i will consider,but if she cover it up until after many     years and i find it out myself,SORRY.....i hate liar
guy D:it's so hard to answer,need to depands on the situation at that moment loooooo...lol
guy E:if the feeling towards her is strong i may put down the past ba......but still i very care whether she is a virgin or not.....
guy F:the best is she still a virgin lah.......
guy G:if let me know tiok see how she die in my hand bo.....@@
guy H:maybe can lah,but if the guy that fuck her before tolds me that its so hurt you know....don't know whether i can accept the fact bo....
guy I:if she told me that i think i will give both of us some space,to think about it....
guy J:i will find another virgin....@@ lame!!
guy K:if i love her i will accept whole of her...even her past..(bravo)
guy L:if can the best is she still a virgin,but if i truely love her...i won't mind about it...atleast she know how to fuck...im lucky...(HK guy),but i know he is joking
guy M:everyone wants their love ones is a virgin same goes to me,but she not a virgin,i love her...i will put it aside.because this is past.everyone makes mistake before..we just can't sentense them to death right....give them chance to recorrect their life....into a correct path....what i seek is future not past....since it already happen.let it be...what i want is a future not past.....

there are stil many more answer given to me i think until Z also can't finish nu....
on my opinion,still the same if she's a virgin that would be the best..after what she told me,if i'm not a virgin you still will accept me mar???to say i have been struggle for 1 month++ and i finally get my own answer...
i will accept her if she is the 1 i think i will have my future with her....means if i do love her....virgin or not it's just a thin layer of cell....nothing more....what is it so importent of it ne???just is our own EGO...thats what makes us so hard to decide........

but if you love her,accept her whole.....she will be more fond to you,will love you more....

whisper of the heart(耳をすませば)

this is my 2nd glibli studio movie i ever watch.....i love this movie so much.....

this movie give me a lot of idea,about love...love that happen to everyone of us during junior high school(m'sia is secondary high school)
this movie let me feel,eventhough there are lots of couple thats once in love before but eventually break up...but i believe that there are true love in this world that,no matter what happen that wouldn't separate both heart apart.even this thing do happen to me,i mean the break up stuff,but i still believe that there are true love in this world that bind each other together.

this movie makes me feel that i have many thing i wanted to do with my girlfriends..
i remember once i told her i want to ride bicycle with her while she sit infront of me i give her a ride....hahaxz..sit reject because she scare,hahaxz...to say i want to try this to my gf from a long time ago...just i don't have the chance....

about the sun rise,i also want to try but aikxz no chance also....school school school....hahaxz so until now also don't have the chance....

this movie really inspired me to do a lot of things....love is something magical that no one able to explain why.it is so unique in some reason you able to feel all the taste of life..hahaxz..i have tasted all..but i haven't tasted the feel of a person getting married,i have asked my sis,she just said like that loh.when you getting married you will understand the feeling hahahxz...."she doesn't answer me a thing"

life is full with different kind of love,when we born the 1st kind of love is parental love.2nd when we have brother and sister called as "brotherly love" hahaxz..3rd as we grew older,expose to the outside world,this is what we feel,beside the warm hearted feeling that we get from our family,this is the special kind of love that somewhere deep inside of our heart that we seek for..."TRUE LOVE".

in term of true love,everyone are searching for it.someone may succeed in their 1st or 2nd try but some may search throughout their life but found nothing but a broken heart...

give an example guy(lock),girl(key),this so called lock-key this scattered all around the world(PLZ no such thing is master key)
each lock is searching for it's key,same goes to the key...searching as well....not all married couple is the perfect lock-key.thats why some end up divorce...maybe at 1st they found that they are mean for each other...but when things start to get along,it's when the problem starting to happen..arguement,this and that...(the lock will get rusted and the key unable to fit it..or vise versa )soon divorce.

to handle a relationship,both side must cooperate well,to maintain a good relationship..and man n girl originate from different world(different personality)i suppose!! in order to let both of this world crash on together required alot of momentum and forces...means both need lots of skill to brush up to maintain a relationship for now and future.....

everything will get rusted if u didn't polish it,add-on a sacrificial metal,which has higher electropositivity,allow it to oxidised faster....to protect the inner layer...for what i means is...don't take it for granted...even she the key for your lock...but doesn't means it will forever be yours....learn to maintain a relationship is importent...is a living skill...hahaxz...thats what i've learned from my last break up...

if can learn while you have the chance but not after.....so everything won't be too late....

ends

everything ends on 11/4/2011........i have done my part.....the rest let god decide for me le......im going to have a long rest le

im not that strong....

infront my friends i maybe strong,i try to be strong,but i still a softy u met in form4,i still the guy that will have tears.......drop for those that i cherish and i really love........2 month ltr i stil have tears for you.....i just not that strong.....im not strong enough....

4 hours to go...

4 hours to go to 12am...where it gonna be 11/4/2011.which suppose to be our date,but it become 2 month i break up with her le...hahaxz....today she so ignore me....to say once somebody heart start to close upon you,you can't really read their mind le..i suppose is their heart ba....hahahxz....

last time countdown to wish her.....now???nothing else......

bad memory please go away

what hurt most is not the person,this the memory itself....i hate it so much..why should i suffocate??it making my mind burst le....please i just go away kay....i have get rid off you so many years le,why you want to come back find me??im not the owner once you know le....just please go away,don't come disturb my mind......

just PLEASE go away.........

最后一次

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

bad memory back..

today what happen is just so alike to what happen on me during form4 and form5 that hurt me a lot...

today i saw her where i know she will be there taking munsyi test in usm,me taking at dewan peperiksaan A,she at dewan peperiksaan B..i reach usm by 8.30am...and since i slept just 3hour,while waiting i fall asleep in the car...when almost time,i walk to the dewan,wao full of people......but the 1st sight i saw is her....to say i can't really recognize her,but i do recognize her hand bag,that bag that once we hid many food inside and bring into cinema eh..hahaxz...

i try to greet her but i don't dare to,because i scare,when i tend to greet her,something cross my mind in that instand,is when f5,where she when to mountain hike with her jitsin friends,where i take up my courage to talk with her but end up she give a very cold reply,that scene scare me and hold me back....from approaching her....i don't want being hurt by the same thing again..such a coward..

just the moment it's like everything that i have put it away comes back to me....the bad and sad memory i have abandoned,the long lost memory come to find back their long lost owner......aikxz....hate them....

the scene that during form4,she went for judo competition at gurney...the loneliness she gave me,while i wait for her almost the whole afternoon...where she dump me aside,go to take picture with her judo friends.where i have been left alone there watching her back..where i have to hold on my feeling n tear and back home..and she doesn't even feel any sence of guilty,when i have gone back home...aikxz that time i should stay and cheer for TANK that come to gurney aikxz...this memory still soooo fresh to me....

many bad memories comes back,is like celine dion(it's all coming back to me now)......the thing that i doesn't hope it be part of my memory...i jx hope it flush away by time by this proven,time unable to cure thing it just let you forget it temporary...but not permanently...

like what chin soon said what has done,there's no return,even i do forgive her and give her chance again,the hurt, the pain ,it won't disappear,even you really can put it down,it still will left scar on it....it can't be remove,since it doesn't have such advance plastic surgery for this gok.....and it forever won't have eh....

i love her but am i struggling,it's this the kind of love i want....?? (@.@) as i saw someone post on FB,how you really understand yourself??what you really desire is it the thing you really want??

many times i tend to give up le,just my heart told me don't.....is it my heart who told me to stop or is me who don't even want to try to give up??

i don't even understand what i really want le..struggle on love is such a waste of time..i know it but now i still....hahaxz...

the memories that hunting me down,i think it need to throw it away again le....the time where i can really fully trust her and put down all the past,on this CNY chu4...and the trust just break few days later...this the thing that really hurt me,it's like when you can fully trust someone,she just stabbed on you right after that....the hurt that really hurt me until now....haixz...

jia wern if u see this post can reply me on this am i really so wrong???for all the thing happen??
i just don't know le....2 more days is 11/4,where me and her brake for 2 month le....should i put it down le?

aikxz

when i start to feel i can atleast put her aside for now.....after last night....i just hard to stop missing her...

feel the old me coming back ane...sooo sucks...i next monday maybe going over her house and i ask her to go out watch movie with me.....she just say see how lul...hope she will agree ba.....just so arrrggghhh..i miss her again.....

confusing

i tend to follow my heart.....and this is what choon lin said....i should just follow my heart,even i fall,i fail.i won't have any regret.....to say i got a bit scare....erm erm....i think this is my 1st time biao bai by using mouth.....not through hp hahaxz..maybe thats why i nervous ba......two times i biao bai to CG also through hp eh....hahaxz...i will try this time.....hahahaxz....i don't know i got chance bo lah..i don't dare to think also.because i know the chance being reject is higher then she accept me back....i just will follow my heart to do what i should do ba...

kaishin i just knew this girl we both very siao eh....she just keep on scold me..try try try...break toh break le lah....what for chase back??many lah..she have her point but still i have my own reason to stay at her side...even things happen until this condition le..i really don't know whether we both still can be like last time,even she accept back.we both must do our best to catch up what have lost between us....like gordon n supei ane...but at last the ok le....

maybe now i can stop miss her...but i know sometimes i still miss her....we see back my sis wedding picture the picture of all of us....i just so miss it...where CG is part of my family picture....really happy...hahaxz..last night i told choon lin,if me and CG still have chance together again,i know it is hard for my friends n family because no matter how her impression sure spoil jor....but i will choose to protect her....teach her to grow up with me....teach her using the soft way....not hard way le....1 word i miss her....4 days to go....to 11/4 le....i miss her..i love her...

我以为

to say i still wondering.whether,that our condition is just like this song....haixz.....can you tell me is it??cg?....hahax

小酒窝

my tears drop again............

exciting trip n fet up thng happen also..

last night after meeting with kai shin at mcd,hahaxz...just knew her for 3 days i think we both talk like we know quite a long time le...i teach her how to control her emotion and how to play 心里战with her ex.

we both talk almost 3hour,where i suppose go gym by 5pm eh...at the end i reach there by 6.30pm..let vct scold gak bo jit teh...because everytime i got meet people when i ask him to go to gym,i always late..last time late 1hour this time longer 1hr and 30min...hehexz...when i reach he already finish his swimming...where we go do gym nu...as usual..

nice???yum yum

then we both go sg.dua which near my house find slipper,vct want to buy,and we both go eat bak kut teh....yup yup...and then after eating v both go tesco extra buy ingredient that i want to use for doing salad....for tomorrow pantai keracut

i at this house over night,his new house....

watch this what what comedy talk....laugh gak pua si.....

someone start to sleep le....i insomia again....we start to sleep almost at 2.30am...but in the mean time i know i wake up almost 5 to 6 times to change my sleeping position from up to down n down to up...his stand fan direct flow on me cold gak pua si....we wake up by 8am..where i feel i didn't sleep at all...so tired...
worst is i forgot to bring my toothbrush....aikxz.....geli....and face so oily..yier....

picture taken before we depart.....eat also full liao eh...hahahxz...

after a while reach destination

 

and after register this is the entrance of pantai keracut.....we reach our destination but just the entrance nia....

nah see..nice bo???

eating our malay so called: bbq chicken pao.our chinese chao siew pao.

 the entrance....hahaxz....after the rocky path

so nice using my htc wildfire to take all the photo...

 pantai keracut or monkey beach??this time go pantai keracut,next sun go monkey beach....hehexz

 walk on the 2 mountain trip....

 1 rest stop

 me too noob d...haixz

 the mountain river water taste so sweet....and cold

finally we reach pantai keracut d.....finally after about 1hour walk....

 what a blue blue sky......so nice..and my mind is all about her..back there...

 so tired resting

we step acroos the rocky mountain using this 2 pair of slipper....

 as people said water is the diamond in dessert.....this is the diamond at the beach is ice.....

 super enjoy the icy cold ice

aikxz ambil siok eh

karate kick......haha....

 the sea so green,the cleanest sea i ever see....

 see this specify it on the darker coloured sand

and this....the hottest part....wao....bare foot....it just like BBQ tiao my foot hot gak...ki siao keng..just to see turtle

 nah dead green turtle

 died baby turtle

 died dolphin

qi kek leh...we just able to see live baby turtle..which i can take any photo of it sad.

the as usual lah since we need to run through that black sand....and we so we do it again...walao...lim lao hiah

 big rock....

 so want to go there....but not dare sooo scary...the depth seem to deep.leh

 see the sea water so green??

 tasik unik....i didn't take the english version

not raining season,so not so nice...the tasik too shallow le

 it suppose to be 9 feet..

 playing water enjoying..

 hahaxz...lame pose

almost 3pm le....going back d...we come almost 3 hours..what we do is eat salad i do,read book..and walk and talk craps....

 do pose again...but this sence nice...

 me also lah lansi abit kekekxz

 tree which is red in colour

 c the trunk??walao eh

 nice bo??soooooooooo talllllllllllll...

 after about 45min walk.finally reach back the entrance le.....

 sooo tired

the next destination,is we decide for all the sudden eh...hahahxz

 tree monkey....

 all the lily...so nice

 beautiful...wao...

 penang have so many nice place i didnt go before...the place here is very nice...if in future if i do married i want to choose this place as a photoshooting sence...because damn nice n leng ar!!!!

 this path is up to tree monkey

nice....easpecially at night....the environment so romantic...i so feel like to bring cg along..

at the i ate a cup of dessert which is rm8.80 for coconut ice-cream....1 mouth settle....haixz waste of money..

then after than we on the way back home le.....so tired and body pain...is whole body...

the trip today is sooo nice even just the 2 of us....but i love it....

to say deep in my heart i so hope i could bring CG along i know she love such place and for photoshooting she sure siao jor eh...damn nice...but dont know will have chance to bring her here bo..just so miss her.....miss her a lot...even now...

just now i reach  home and i found out that i drop my hp in vct car...and i have to retrieve it because its importent to me....i have to use it eh....want lend car from my sis she said paya terubong wor....so dangerous mai lah can not drive....later my car got problem then how??and i said i run sales eh i without hp how im going to work??if people find em how?my mom drive back alor setar and only back on next tuesday le....don't so selfish lah....they toh c mai lend d...end up i have to walk across bj mountain...so total i walk 5 mountain per day....my leg almost patah lucky not yet reach paya terubong....vct come and fetch me d...he fetch me back and go super tanker have a drink and pancake...before he leave...thanks bro..owe you one again...gam xia...but this time i lost my emotional control...aikxz..cham le....haixz...

i messege her and tell her that what happen and i now walking on bj moutain....but she didn't reply me which make me so sad....haixz....and just so haixz....don't know le lah.....i just so don't understand why to forgot the guy,she have to forgot me also....i just so miss her....miss her...even im enjoying i still hope i can share with her..my happiness....haixz...