confuse........

actually...is it worth for waiting her again??sometimes i feel like giving up.....but eventually i didn't....im still have tears for her...just now see back her cousin picture,she post up ah gong birthday celebration..where inside got me n her picture....kissing....heart feel so pain....thinking why all will end up like this......but for now there is no reason to ask why,since there won't be answer........

sometimes i do think why i will fall in love to a girl that make my heart feel so uneasy and afraid.....i love her but she can't steady down her heart.....to walk with me to the rest of the life........10 more days it will be 11/june...where is 4 month....hahahaxz time flies so fast......as if everything just happen..

there are two thinking in my mind.........im still waiting for her or im afraid being hurt again....to say i have been very flirty after break up.....this is not me.....but this is the life of being single right......but i less to hand on my hp whole day message whole day......gaming life left so long time ago liao.....

su pei said i change a lot....in term of attitude,thinking,speech i have become mature.......but am i???hahahaxz but im happy.......atleast su pei still treat me as her friend......hahahaxz.....i still have a lot to learn....step by step to become mature.....there are a lot of stair for me to walk on,i know i can.......but as the same when i keep on moving forward she stay behind,is it mean this wanting me to let it go??i afraid the more i move on,the futher she be left behind......@@

life is being uneasy......especially in term of relationship....my mom still expect me to bring her back on this november to my cousin wedding....my mom really happy when just now i said bring your GF back ya...i said ok....she said you bring cg back are,ok back le??i can see my mom smile....but i said no im still single....i can feel my mom sad..in somehow i can't describe it......make my heart feel so sorrow.....DOWN.....