i confess

just to think of what title should i put on is quite headache hahahxz.. It's been quite sometimes i didn't blogging. To say what is life actually mean? is it to be happy?to be enjoyable?i think non of us would think that way right? i just keep on thinking and wondering, what is the real happiness?do it have definition for it?

after a lot of thinking,after a lot of talking,i feel like something in my life is missing...there an emptiness that couldn't be replace...a lot of thing happen in this year,to say time goes around so fast,already almost one year le..going to CNY soon...

feels like i'm going to talk a bout girls again?partially yes....hahaxzx

within this few months,i feel like after start studying,all my effort have been cooked up,it's just lost in an instance,to say i really can't accept it..i like have to rebuild all over again..after this final exam,i have a lot of time i must pia.to make my dream come true..
currently my do a lot of investment until i don't really have enough money for myself to spend,hahaxz. But the good part of it is i earn a lot hahahxzx. People do says with money,you rich,you can do everything you want....i can get what i want,i get my nike,gonna get a new handphone,decorate my own room...all of this is just the luxury i want to get..but still there are something gone forever not likely to be replace.

This word NOT LIKELY TO BE REPLACE ,i do wonder why some people able to recover so fast when being hurt,i do wonder is it me the one that have this kind of problem or when they hurt this is what they do to recover.to forget?

Last night when on the way back to kampar i do talk a lot with andy,he said when you truely gave everything of you to someone,i likely for you to feel that is hard for you to love someone as much as the past or in other word,you don't have confident in relationship.until now to be frank i still miss her.i would be bluffing you if i said no.


Life is not always goes in the way we want,you think in future you would likely to be doctor but end up you maybe a businessman.when the course you choose sure there are many factor will drive you away from your course,in the way that you won't notice.some people would let the fate control,some people would want to control their own fate.to become what they dream of.i would want to that person,to make my dream come true.and part of my dream is you with me.

if life can be rewind,many thing i want to undo.adjust the past so i would be a better person,a better man.but this is just a dream,a dream that maybe in this life won't be coming true.

regret is the word i hate most....REGRET.....

亲爱的，我多么幸运，人海中能够遇见你

when i'm thinking of going back to sunshine square work as a promoter again,with my buddy..i found out it's almost 1 year pass by,time really flies so fast...1 year thing change so fast,vast changes that i never imagine will happen to me..and i single almost 1 year still somehow someone is still occupy someplace in deep inside my heart...like my friends said i never open to anyone..
人说,每个不想谈恋爱的人,心里都住着一个不可能的人 just saw this on my friends blog...the reason i still single is because of this....i think i do need a longer time to let it go....so for now 就continue 幼稚下去.......

you are the apple of my eye

this movie is so nice...so meaningful..today i watch with chen liang and keat siew hahaxz, we chat a lot,what happen in our separate Uni life..all= BAD hahahzx...

the movie is so nice many PCC part hahahaxz...every laughable...friendship naturally can only been found during secondary school, i damn agree with this point...hahaxz..

the plot of the movie is nice,meaningful.It bring out a lot of memories,wonderful memories,what LC thing i done while i'm study.those girl i chase before eventhough CLHS no girls..but what i know is there is a girl i love so much..

i said before we guy will never forget the girl we truely love and care before,i agree with that point....after watching the movie,the ending is a bad,which hurt me loh.i wish them would be together,but at the end shen chia yee married to an uncle...walao...so shit..but still the movie have pierce through my heart...

it make me emo,but atleast i know something i do really love before....^^

DO YOU STILL REMEMBER YOUR 1ST LOVE??

sudden in mind

when i chat with my friend gf,she ask me how to get out from unimap...hahahxz..another one want to run away from that hell of a place.

suddenly she asked me single or double? haha sure said single d lar.. at that moment she said when time comes i will find my mr's right then i start to think what is the feel to love or being love?it's like so long long ago and i have forgotten how and what it feels, it's like i never fall in love before that i don't have any feeling nor experience.hahazz..

maybe just like what chen liang said heart lock off le.i think me also le.really i have forgot how is the feeling le.just like i never fall in love before..

what a day

today wake up study study study......is a marvelous day for me.....because my midterm near the end liao...hahahahxzxz

having heart attack on paying share.....aikxz my jyc drop a bit le...lose tiao money but it is a potential share....still hoping it to grow....hope for the best because last time it up 100% earn like hell on that hahahxz...

study gak siok siok...suddenly a cockroach run out from my cupboard....shit it...i jump up the chair stand to figure out what i can do,what to do..i go out take broom...i wasted half bottle of insect spray manage to kill one cockroach....hahaxz i went into berserk form...i use broom smack another dead...then flush them away....i thought my nightmare end liao..shit...another one appear again...i almost faint.i want go insane d...a day appear 3 cockroach....what hell of the day...it killing me...from small size to bigger size...like my thumb so big....lucky it can't fly...finish killing them take up almost 1hour....waste my study time....and finish killing them is the time i need to go for my financial accounting framework test le...

hahaxz 1st time sit for university exam..1st time i so steady go in to the hall and so confident..i never feel so..i manage to settle all...i got phobia in accounting eh..but i manage to do well in it....gonna strive more..pia more to get good result so i can switch back to KDU..HAHA.....part of my plan....

now what left is assignment and presentation...and prepare for final....go go go....go for the best....wkakakakkaxzxz....

my heart stabed again

today i finally back penang...wkakakakxz i damn happy when on the way drive back....every moment of it i want to reach penang faster.....the rain so heavy..until i drive 20km/hr nia.....

i reach penang le...is good is fun to able to sleep on my own bed,to see my room,my 24' monitor..

but all just so empty...i saw something that i don't want to see...it make my tear drop from nowhere.......8 month....things still the same.....feeling the same,pain also the same...everything still remain the same....

why i can't be strong,why im still so weak......i just...so sucks

it's been 2 weeks....

new life at kampar here,erm how to say nice but probably solo all the way..hard to make friends there....

i do think is it because of my own attitude?erm erm hahahxz...but still got friends lah...just like my management class all is sem2 above wao...think on the other hand is good because those senior really taught me a lot of thing.teach me new thing for the financial accounting framework....hahaxzx thanks to them i can still manage myself with this course...

i have taken a lot of picture near the west lake so nice.....will post up some hahaxz

this is the few picture i took...for me i think nice but still to the pro's it is a normal picture i have a lot of training to do to learn...will gambate so as my study also hahahxz

my mood diu shit

after so long.....what i did is it really that matter?is it what i done make you hate me so much??

i really don't know.....better is to do nothing le....so hurt and tired....with all of this....going to leave penang soon,everytime i pass there i so hope to see the familiar car i use to drive and sit before..even everytime i said yuck mai liao loh i drive gak sien d....don't want to sit or buy it....the reason i so deny it maybe because of a simple reason.that lays within my heart.

no one will know what im hoping to see everyday when i pass there...i said before the distance between us so close..still its far....more far than what it use to me..while now im leaving le...many thing i reluctant...still i wish it would happen...but this friday is approaching,nearer and nearer from time to time...

i miss all the thing....can i stay?even just for a bit?just to know that im close to you...that would be enough...even it's far...im'm just...1 word............... HURT

im happy but im sad too

today quite enjoy i go out with chin soon to gurney on motorbike,its rare to go so far actually.

it's been quite sometimes i didn't go gurney le..today went back a lot of memories flash back,return to my mind.what i do in gurney with her,what i do with her on the stall.i told chin soon,the wantan mee stall that the aunty hahaxz..her expression when see her feed me eat.a lot of memory return to me..

i think im the only one who can't really let go of the past.

i saw a lot of couple,i envy them.but i do think among all of this couple how many will manage to survive till the end?to me i have to confident in love/relationship at all le.all i think is -ve.

but i do still really miss her.last time i want to stay close to penang is because i have my business running here,i don't want to go so far away.i part of it is,i want to stay close to......

eventhough i know it's foolish.but i really don't know le..haixz...

i should get some rest and think what should i do for dealing with my customer complaint le...

today i'm happy but im sad

i miss

Once there are a ladybird,"it" keep on bug me,i love "it",but my nature is scare of bug.
i chase "it" away,i scold "it" away,i push "it" away,i make "it" sad,i make "it" cry,i ask "it" to go away...

now "it's" gone,i so miss "it"..............i wish "it" would come back and bug me again....i really DO

im so down

today i have been nothing but watching anime,i got people order birdnest from me,i can't feel of anything.....

if last time when i receive order,i would jump here,jump there,wanting to find more client,earn more money,but this few days, i don't have such feeling....i feel so lost,so down.haixz..

i just don't know liao lah..i feel so stress,so helpless.i don't know which to go or what to do...

........................haixzx.........................

im back

if i said i stop studying universiti le what will all of you feel??

before is me who insists to not to study unimap,but after the registration is my parent who ask me to come back penang study loh...

this few day at unimap is quite enjoy eh lah..talk and meet a lot of new friend nu.

but i decide to come back study lah.i don't really like the environment there.

many thing happen there.i think me n chun hong is the 1st student can let senior drive us out to town,do our thing eh ba.hahahxz..

me have a chinese roommate but 5 malay housemate....yuck...haixz..on monday hahahxz..i very kacau at unimap.many ppms senior let me kacau...nt let me call leng lui leh toh si i call them endao eh...all ppms see tiok me like friends ane lah...since i so like to kacau them..

then when the tokoh giving speech,hahahxz the camera face me i banyak pattern on the video i think the whole hall people would see tiok what i done on the big screen gua....hahahaxzxz....we all clhs st on the 1st row n 2nd row,we laugh n talk so loudly. we don't give the tokoh face...and we say gok si lim guan eng geng..hahahahahxz..when got student ask him question and he don't know how to answer..we are the group that laugh the loudest gua hahaxzx....cham loh but don't care lah...

last night last day at penang all shit eh...the nasi lemak the curry overnight eh....walao eh...food poisoning. many of us vomit and stomachache loh...haixz..me until now still feel not so well nia...but now im back in penang le...decide to further my study in management lah....will find and see which is good for me lah...

hope i able to recover soon lah now feel like want to sick also le sleep for whole day long..body is weak...haixzxz.....ang gong po pi lah..

have a happy day and new life nu...wkakaakakakakxz

haix

im going to leave penang liao today.....what i reluctant about is i know what it is....

before i leave,what un my mind is about the grey box..i so miss the grey box what hidden inside the box..haixzx...i so miss ...

feel like crying le........

I

In my life i cherish everything ever come into my life....today i finally feel what is the feeling of going to separate with those so important in your life,FRIENDS.
i don't know why i will feel so,see them going so far away.eventhough i knew them just 1 years but what make me have such a strong feel with them is what they teach me,from a boy to a guy.from a naive to a mature man...i so like them,even all of us walk on different path now but life still have to go on.i so miss them...

hope when there are chance for us to meet again.where we all can walk on UPR,go esplanade eat and talk....i miss the time.....

friends forever.

what a day

today darren take his flight go canada for 2 years for his study...2 years seems long...haixz..

what feel pity is ah girl going uk this sept and darren go canada.haixz.both lovely couple.separate because of study.but i know this will make they become stronger.ah girl study for 5yrs.its quite long you know haixz..is time really able to go so fast?
i do wonder.

to say time never wait us,time run so fast,just a blink of an eye.how many second has pass by.say 9 month don't know what can be done,but now already 1st of sept..

today farewell very weird thing happen,cg ex also there.so gan gak loh.hahaxz.but still me n him able to chat n smile so happily...weird hahaxz...feel so wao...the situation is so paisei leh..but nevermind grown up liao..this thing happen a lot..today i know i be seeing her again,she don't really choi me lah..but i know d still i able to put on my smile and talk with all of them.im no longer the shy boy le..

ah girl got ask me see liao cg how you feel?good?me say ane lah..no sad or happy,but see she happy i ok le...hahahxz..see she taking photo with her beloved dslr 550d.hahahxz.so siok..

a lot of thing in my mind when i silence,i see and feel everyone feeling,sad,moody,reluctant,sorrow.all written on their face..see ah girl,jia wern them cry.darren eye watering.see his parent cry till haixz..i wonder if im the one flying will anyone come bid me goodbye?cry for me?i think no lah..i don't think will have..hahahxzz..

time never stop for anyone of us,we stop doing,we just wasting time.see all this i know each and every second is importent,thats why i so cherish every relationship,i have,friendship or what,i will always remember what i have before.

even me and darren not so know of each other still i treat him as bro.hope he will be doing well there...

all the sudden

is been quite sometimes since the last time,i been having this kind of feeling...

after back from the apartment stay,to say my mood not that good.because my money kena cheat but all of them know i hardly to get the money back but still they all act stupid and return the amount...but i don't want think so much so just ignore it lah.but luckily my htc ok back d..but still i worried about her(htc wildfire)

then after fetch john n moy back home,i back home do some stuff then go QB cimb,i think of running few bank to do some transaction eh.but...i reach cimb by 2.59pm.i waited until 5.43pm..i almost gila ki.....shit...so many people....haixzzzzx..

between that time i say a girl,she wearing the same shoe that she have.hahaha i toh start think of her d,then when she take out her purse,i saw the picture,it remind me of when are still together.....haixz i miss that time so much..

apartment stay i see my friend, bernard, john, chinsoon when the talk with their GF it remind me of what i done,when she call i will go some place,talk with all of what all the thing i had done,all the joyful laughter.it reminds me a lot of thing..

after finish all the payment.my stomach start to sound.....hahahahxz.i didn't in a single thing since morning.when i enter Q breeks,i saw to young couple eating inside,i feel so haixz.not feeling to enter but no choice lah..the cheapest food is there....@@..
sitting alone facing the opposite chair which is empty,while waiting of food i make me feel so haixz..why all why will turn up like that.so hope everything can back to normal but is it able to happen?

in my mouth i do say single is better where there are no boundary or chain holding you,but in my heart i still hope that she is the one that willing to chain me up...
i just so damn miss her...

all is in my mind

Just now my mom n sister mention about her again..ask how is choygin?is it she have bf liao?i say i dont know..my mom toh scold me le.toh si lu eh kuan...choy gin gak mai lu...so nice eh girl also beh hiao cherish...its very hurt you know..

haixzx.make me miss her again....i miss her again..AGAIN

missing something

finally im back penang,all the driving make me sick. i think i improve liao..because i dont feel sleepy at all...hahahaxz...

today i went to many places.and a lot of thinking today.thinking of her.the rainy day along the highway,remind me of the day when me driving kancil,and she sit beside me back from alor setar from my sister wedding.that day back the rain was heavy,the weather so dark and i couldn't see a thing.she also afraid of me because i have night blindness i couldn't see well.she hold my hand while i'm driving and feed me eat some snack.on my handphone with some music to make sure i stay awake.

then my mom call ask me to stop at the perhentian because the rain to heavy,she lay on my shoulder.and we both wait the rain lesser then move on,the warm hearted feeling.The feeling give by someone you love and you care,is really the greatest gift.

after the rain grew smaller,we move on back to penang,on the road im not really happy,i don't even want to drive fast.because i know the faster i drove,the lesser i will be seeing her.

when almost reach penang,my heart feel so sore,sad.almost reaching her house make me so down.still i know i hav'ta accept it.finally i reach her house,at there i eat some leftover.but its nice im so hungry that time.after eating,i went up to her room.i hug her and cried because its going to be 1 month+ im not be seeing her,because of stpm.i so miss her.i cried like hell,she cheer me up like im a small boy,but still i miss that day.i hug her and kiss her for so long the feeling never left me.

i so miss her,i miss her so much for all the sudden.don't know how is she now.i hope she fine.i know even i have move on with my life,but my heart still stay waiting for her. i miss her

i love you

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.."

the notebook

<a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/15931.The_Notebook" style="float: left; padding-right: 20px"><img alt="The Notebook" border="0" src="http://photo.goodreads.com/books/1299206637m/15931.jpg" /></a><a href="http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/15931.The_Notebook">The Notebook</a> by <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/author/show/2345.Nicholas_Sparks">Nicholas Sparks</a><br/>
My rating: <a href="http://www.goodreads.com/review/show/196860005">5 of 5 stars</a><br /><br />
the best book ever,i always live in a fantasy of true love,even im 20,there is a girl i so in love with,we break up once and we together back again,back of my naive make her tired,she left me again.but still i love her.this story motivate me a lot.i believe if i waited and never give up,one day i will wait her back to my side.nicholas spark your movie,you novel are marvelous
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the notebook

this movie is so nice...

i cried after watching this movie.it refresh a lot of my memories,it says that we will always remember our first 1st,but really even she not my my first but when im watching that movie all my thought is about her..

the notebook is a very nice movie.i love it so much..make me so miss her...so damn miss her

the memory is never gonna forgot

hear this song make me think back a lot of my past,the time i court girl,the only memory i thinking is her.how i court her.

all those memory make me feel warm heart.so nice.so miss it.make me feel i really able to love a girl,and how she change me.i so miss that time.miss it a lot.

to chase my own dream is it a big problem?

when i thought the biggest threat for me is my dad,he is not he ask to to think properly and if that is what you want then go.

now the three person that said go for what i want eh is the biggest threat,they is the one ask me to think what i want in my life,now they are the one want me to enter university go for some course that i don't like,what they said?one is 12k other is 35k++ triple the amount, ptptn can go for full loan and i'm the one paying it.i want for for the field that can help me in my future business.is it so bad?business is it a bad subject?you all say till like business no job,this is a business world and you said business study liao no use?then this world mah no need do business d loh.

last time i don't have aim in my life,i just follow what you all said enter form6,and now i know what i want to do in my life and you all still want me go for thing i know i from the start i don't want d eh.is it future hav'ta decide by parent but not us ourself? haixz.i know study form6 liao but not going to university is a waste,but still if i going into the thing i don't want and not the future i dream of.a lot of my friends found what they want to do in their future,and all discard the choice of going university le,why they can i can't?their parent also not rich,still they able to persue their own dream,while my dream have to be control by other?

i really don't know le.i really hope you were around,where you can help me analyse my problem for me..i really stress up.

so happy

this few days many thing happen,make me hard to breath.but i think within this few days can end it.

today i went to cg house,her mom fetch yan hong go basketball,me wait at their house,hahahxz.

i want to go see they play basketball eh,then cg dad going hahahxz..1st time uncle sit motor with his dad.is my 1st time.reach there,hahaha saw a bunch of kid play basketball.i think it's been centuries since the last time i play basketball liao.

so noob..hahahxz.i never expect the gina to cooperate with me,as a team with me.to say see the way they play i want to scold bad word..one word no training before eh...hahahxz

i play till leg pong pa..but i too long didn't play full court and is me run up and down eh.solo.@@

u will understand why my leg will pong pa and internal bleeding i step on the tiny rock pain until now....@@

7pm liao,
his dad come fetch us back..hahaxz i think the last time i sit motorbike in 3 person is standard6.his dad fetch me,yan hong.hahaxz..refresh of my childhood memory while i at kampung life..

then i so freaking tired and no energy to move a muscle i drank many cups of water.mouth dry until can't produce any saliva.hahaxz.whole body is shaking.

cg mom saw me walk gak ane ask me to show my foot to her...see tiok wao all pong pa eh...she immediately take medicine from the fridge,apply it for me..so touch.hahahxz.say why i keep on shake eh.is worst then last time gok.i say after exercise is like that eh..hahahaxz.

then she make a cup of hot milo for me and have a talk with me,she say me na lai na thin liao..like bo eat ane..last time got pong pao bin eh...now bo ki liao...hehehxz im HAPPIE.....talk with her about what im doing now and what is my planning.what i do for my study have i decided yet.have quite a long chat with her..

that time is almost 8.30pm liao.and i take my leave.although i see is just that few second,enough le.i don't expect too much le..let the time being..

still im so happy her parent still so good and care for me....

fck up my life

is it everytime what i want to do in my life,you all hav'ta decide for me?

no body will know what going to happen tomorrow,i also don't know i will end up doing business.
i know i get engineering course is a good course,but i really don't like the life of engineer.is so lifeless.
but can't you all just respect what i want to do for my life,i know its safe cost,but i don't want go for the course that i don't like.

I know i'm clueless for what i'm going to do last time,but after study for form6,i know is a waste that people so hope to get a place in Local U,i get it and is engineering course,but i don't want.i really don't know i will choose this path of business.

you all like that i don't know how to speak up with you all.i don't even know how to start the conversation.arrrrggggghhhhh...shit gak pua si.haizx..

our heart so so so far...long distance

song of my hearts

what is in my mind

just now i share with rachel ,my picture of her and me.hahaxz in my mind i feel so sweet.looking into the pciture of us..where i found that im soooooooooooooooooo FAT,i totally can't accept it.i can't accept it.

rachel said me n her got fu qi xiang..many people do said that.hahaxzxz..but everything is a part of my memory.

No matter how familiar we used to be with each other,as long as we are apart then we become strangers. 原来只要分开了的人，无论原来多么熟悉，也会慢慢变得疏远。

but i like this 
A man who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is.
如果一个男人真爱你，永远不会丢下你，不管情形有多难。

i love this qoute..still many people ask me to move on,but still im waiting.even i know is almost impossible still im waiting. 

meaningful

just now have a talk with sin ying,he asked me about me and her thing.within the conversation,he asked something very meaningful.

"we you meet her,we you two see eye to eye,who the one avoiding?i answered:"me,i don't dare to look into her eye".then he said then is your fault liao.while breaking up you the one who is wrong.

and i admit is my falut..what he said is correct i admit is my fault.haixz.

my mom hit on the spot again

just now i tell her last night i saw her,she said did her talk with you?did you feel anything?
my mom see my face,she said she didn't talk with you?i say mah ane loh.i can't do anything.

my mom said u still love her is it?i just silence for a while and say erm..then i said last night mah talk with her family play with her cousin.

then she ask she know what studied i said her parent know lah.im not sure she know or not.but know or not mah ane loh...it make no different.

my mom said at Uni there don't find gf liao.focus on your study,abo later kena again.if got don't bring back my dad don't like eh.i say i won't be finding GF liao.she ask because of her?i just glance through her eye.i think she get my message.

she said want buy house i said i will buy at Bukit mertajam area,she said you want mar?if in future you saw her marry,you want to sad again?i said nothing i can do what?if she marry to other guy i will wish her the best..but different story mar.there eh house is cheap compare to penang why want to buy penang house where you can get a cheaper house.even i stay near her,so?my mom said 看开一点.if you love her go chase her back,we won't stop you.we all accept her d eh.but if you don't,just focus on your study,pia your business ok le.single is always better eh..

i just told my mom,我已经看开了，能跟她在一起看缘份了。but really in my heart she really not my gf le.but is my.......

im so happy,my parent so dear to her.my mom just said this is love,you both start at the wrong time.maybe in future can,but you hav'ta wait her.i said erm.

after i talk with my mom,i have found my ANSWER..thanks mom for your support.i love you.even walking on that path will be very hard but thanks for have a heart to heart talk with me.thanks for letting me found my ANSWER.i finally found and heard the whisper of my heart.

last night

wao...
i overslept,where i suppose to go to jit sin for blood donation mia.but i didn't aikxz..so paisei to jia wern i promise her but i dint kept my promise..sorry ya jia wern.

the moment i wake up,i got a bad new i phone to my customer and got other idiot snatch my customer..shit him..haixz..so sucks..unexpected this will happen..DOWN..my face gak na guan gong ane for the whole morning.and afternoon..

then about 5.30pm i depart to bon-odori.ALONE.hahazx.find parking is so difficult,but i park at the shop where i get my birdnest..hahahxz

about6.30pm i finally reach esplanade.hahaxzfor that one and a half hour i was walking alone see people talking photo,so many professional dslr...hahahxz.i wish to have one on hand though.

there many couple,make me feel so lonely,but the reason i went there is to see back all those memories i had there at last year bon.I tried to search for the karate sensei.but he is not there.haixz.all the thing unchange.what it change is i walk alone.on the field.sit beside the seaside,see all the couple,where i sit at the place me,her and jia wern sit eh place hahaxz..think back,we all drinking yakult i think hahaxz..so sweet i mean the drink lah..

then finally at there meet up vct,kevin,steph and eric.have a lot of talk there,meet up with other senior.etc.etc.

maybe fate brought us together,i saw her cousin,when eric say u see the girl in kimono.and i recognize her,she bring me to see her mom and there i saw cg aunt we have a long chat..i bring their 2 little girl go buy mum mum.wao.wait for 25minute long.but its ok lah.

the fireworks start when they two finish buying hahaxz.the fireworks damn nice.when we start to walk back where their aunt was waiting for us.and there i saw her and her family hahaxz..i just realise i could play with her cousin so well and kept on kena suan siao that im short...@@ but nevermind im used to it..then talk with their parent.CG mom asked me you didnt come with your friends i saw no,u ka ki drive car come here?i say ya.alone ar??i say yes i walk a lone since 6pm till now.her mom give me a look like so make me feel so lighthearted ki.i just say its ok to come alone.the moment i felt that im so lonely.but its ok to me now.

seeing her keep on taking picture,ah rou keep on say why see that direction,got pretty girl meh hahaxz...im looking at her at a distance,where i don't even dare to go near her.im afraid.

Her mom touch my stomach and say why so thin ki??i say i lost 12kg ki liao.she said so thin for what?eat more mar.i said i want to keep a fit body.gak nice,i got so swim and gym eh.she thought i didn't eat again.hahaxzi ate alot.actually

then i continue play with her cousin,hahaxz.all so nice can talk,and they say last time i don't really like to talk now hahahxz...now i talk with them a lot like know for a long time liao.then about 10.30pm i toh greet them goodbye.

then i start run to where i park my car,i so paisei to that indian guy,i block his car atleast 5hours.@@sorry ya dude.

then me and rachel go to paradise there eh beach have a talk,we talk until 4.30am ane hahaxz..sit beside the beach talk.i so hope i can do this with her,but i know is impossible.

when i saw 2 shooting star in my heart i wish for a thing.i want to be with her again.rachel said wish liao will drean come true,and i do wish..deep inside my heart.i know i love her so much.even now.

see her im happy liao.eventhough i do miss her.but i do wish her the best.for all.i will wait her.

happy or sad?

today i got unimap,is good that i got polymer engineer.hahahxz this is the subject i wish to get though,many of my friends going there,shao jie,vincent cheah,say leong,ah eng,jessica,andric.all going the same place with me,wao i never expect to have so many people going with me.

but im worry for vcc,he fail to get any Uni.haixxz.worry for him a lot..

when i get unimap im happy because it quite near to penang though,but im quite sad because i can't get usm.I finally realise why i want to get into usm and want it to be so near to penang..i finally understand it.i don't want to lose sight of her.To say i miss her so much.a lot,even now.

It make me feel like im gonna lost her forever,even that now can say is lost forever liao,but in my heart even i don't really do anything but i still hope i can somehow,someway.

5 month passes by,still i miss her.

happy wkakakakxzxz

just finish talk with popo,wao ah gong and popo went to hospital continuous 2 days le...

so happy finish after 5 month more le,just now go hospital check his liver,doctor said he recover le..just a bit oil cover his liver only...everything all green.so happy for him.but still can not luan luan eat nu..can hear popo so happy laugh till so happy.I also happy for her.thanks god.

Hope ah gong will be healthy forever hope his eye will recover soon...ang gong po pi po pi.

a nice piece of advice for me

刚搬进这个房子的那天，她整理完全部的东西，最后拿出一个非常精緻的玻璃瓶，对他说：“亲爱的，3个月内，你让我每哭一次，我就往里面加一滴水，代表我的眼泪。要是它满了，我就收拾我的东西离开这房子..”
爱没有合不合适，只有珍惜不珍惜..
男人不以为然，有点纳闷：“你们女人也太神经质了吧！就这麼不信任我麼，那还有什麼可谈？我让你搬过来和我一起生活，是为了照顾你，不是欺负你的！”
女人说：“ 好男人不会让心爱的女人受一点点伤，我会记录下我为什麼流泪，不会是莫名其妙的。”
“那好吧，抱抱～！”

两个月后，女人把那瓶子给男人看，说：“已经满一半了，在两个月内，我们是否有必要查看一下是什麼问题呢？”说完递了一本精緻的小笔记本给男人。
男人没有马上打开来看，他的表情里有一丝惊讶，还有点哭笑不得的意味，似乎没有想到..
女人的眼泪可以这麼多，盛得这麼快，又觉得女人是小题大作了，但是很可爱..

他打开本子开始看，惊讶女人怎麼写了那麼多。男人一边看著，女人一边说话：“第一次吵架，是在第3天，而且还是一大早，你刚醒来有点懵懂，挤的牙膏不知道怎麼的飞到镜子上了，那是我刚擦乾净的，我说你连挤牙膏都不会啊，你就来脾气了，然后吵起来..”
男人沉默著。女人继续说：“有天晚上我让你帮洗下那几件衣服，因为水太凉，你只顾著玩游戏迟迟不肯动，后来吵起来，我很失望你忘记了我的生理期不能碰冷水，委屈..”
“还有一次，我很累了，你还不肯去洗澡睡觉，明明知道我特敏感，有点神经衰弱，哪怕一点点敲键盘的声音都能让我难以入睡，我一情急就说了你这个人自 私的话，我们吵起来，你说了一大堆辩论自己不自私自私的人是我之后甩门出去上网通宵，我打你电话你没拿我又不敢自己一个人去找你..”

女人这时候有点激动了，眼球开始泛红，说：“还有一次..”
男人打断了她的话，“亲爱的，别说了..”
沉默.. 长久的沉默..
还是女人打破了沉默：“是不是我们真的不合适？如果是这样，结婚了还是会离婚吧？我们的个性都那麼强，谁都不肯退让..”
气氛有点尷尬..


本子里记录的事情都是那麼细小的事情，每次吵架的原因都是那麼的简单，男人看著这本子，似乎在体会著女人的心情，大男子是不会去计较这些小事，原本 觉得每次和好之后都没事，女人就爱拿这些来说事，但是当他认真去看的时候，他也开始难过了，女人很细心，把事件、心情都写了，还自己总结了一下原因。原来 最微小的事情累积起来是很让人痛苦的，他看得出，女人从失望慢慢变成绝望..
他想，大概是因为每次吵架，两人都是喜欢在吵架中找出对方不爱自己的证据。他突然意识到，这是个很严重的问题！而且每次吵架，双方都是在心情不稳定的时候，就是还有别的烦心事的时候，把不好的情绪带进了两个人的生活里..

“亲爱的别难过..” 男人终於说话了：“我请个假，我们去旅游吧。”
他们去了第一次一起旅游的地方，太多美好的回忆被唤起，原来彼此是那麼深深地爱著对方，这时的女人特别温柔，这时的男人特别体贴。
“亲爱的，你还认为我们结婚的话，会离婚麼？” 男人问。
“我想不是我们不合适，像现在，我们是那麼快乐，一切都那麼美好，可是一回到我们的现实生活里，为什麼就变了呢？”
“亲爱的，难道我们现在不在现实里吗？”
“.. ..” 女人楞了。

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“因为那时候我们都把注意力集中在负面的事物上并且放大了那些负面的心情。并且喜欢找对方不爱自己的证据，然后彼此个性都很倔不肯服输太要面子..”
女人觉得确实是如此，原来，双方只是需要一点点忍让，一点点包容。男人带她回顾这初次旅游的地点，是真的用心了，想起那时候他们在一起还不久，为了让对方觉得自己好，都表现出自己最好的一面..
“还有半个月，如果那瓶子还是半瓶，那麼，亲爱的，嫁给我吧！”
女人钻进男人怀里笑开了顏..

后来他们结婚了。很少再吵架。如果粗心的男人不小心碰掉了杯子，女人不会再开口就骂，因为在女人开口之前，男人已经在道歉，说对不起，都是我不小心 的，赔两个给老婆！老婆儘管去选你喜欢的！女人就笑了，然后说，不用买啦，反正还有杯子，再说也不都是你的错，怪我自己没把杯子放好，让你碰到啦！
原来真的没有合适不合适，
只有珍惜不珍惜，
能一起走一起进步是幸福的..



its always too late for something if you don't realise it earlier......and it all goes to me....

after see tiok someone post

i just realise 2 more days will be kai shin b'day and 2 more days means me n her break up for 5 month le....if didn't see her post just now i didn't really notice it going to be 11th again this month...hahahxzx

i think i will go through it eh...let it be the the flow goes with it

happy

last night i found out i less gak 58kg ki liao....hahahxzx...all the running the swimming,gym,all the effort pays....wkakakakx

most importent is my waistdrop liao i think less than 30 liao....i think is 28 something....because my 30 eh plans keep on want fall off liao.....hahahxzxz

see all those picture uploaded by andrew so siok. very nice..he good in taking photo i love the effect,that small camera ca do till so nice effect so nice...hahahaxz..last night have a nice day eventhough whole body injurt liao....

Next stop mengkuang....

1st korean song i listen to,thx to rachel

the lyric is so nice......it show what thing i regret most....reflect out what had always keep in my mind.

malhan jeog issnayo
geudaeleul salanghabnida

dasi malhabnida
geudael salanghabnida

我聽見有人叫你寶貝

this is what you make me feel

it's been a long time

Wao today is a great day is it?a great start?many thing i haven't done yet wake up 2nd thing in my mind is all my business stuff..

But for the 1st thing is?

It been quite a long time i didn't dreamt about her,i think for last night,a whole night long i dreamt about her.In the dream i remember it very well,all i do is see at her and say out every single words that lay at the bottom of my heart that i have kept it away.

Is it a good dream or bad dream?when i wake up make me miss her again,but that dream make me feel so warm and like it granted me a wish came true in my dream i can say it out what my heart felt.

haha,it like so lame,to feel so.but i have learn to feel sastify.I'm happy i have her once,where our heart are truely connected,its more than enough.The 1years and 8 month trip,many sweet and sour memories,have changes my life a lot,from a boy to a teenager,finally a man.not for her,i think in my life i won't really strive for the thing which i think is importent to me,i won't strive for my future.In my sales treory,i always said:"YOU GIVE,YOU GET".

In our life,there are many strangers passing by,in and out from our life is a never ending.To reach his or he turn,no one knows,fate and faith will bring us along.Have faith,everything will comes along when the times come.

finally

my guitar got a little bit progress liao........wkakakakxz

tonight

tonight we gonna EAT on the floor.....EAT on the floor

i found this piece of thingy on FB

两个人一起久了，女的会越来越爱男的，男的越来越随便。男的会说女老是胡思乱想，女的就说男已经变了不像以前那么宠她…其实大家都没变，只是时间变了，因为彼此关系变亲密了，习惯对方，所以不会再像热恋那样，女的会胡想，无论如何请不要对爱情偷懒，否则只有平淡.然后矛盾争吵再到分手。♥

wt it says so real and it remind me of what she said to me.....hahahxz....i think this is happening among all the couple lah..

TOKUN

wao today i just slept for 3 hours,then hav'ta wake up drive all the way to Bukit mertajam,alma.

wao today bakc to BM is like so long i dint go there liao....i think 3 weeks??hahahxz

my thigh i weak...haixz..i can't hike the mount.as a pain in ass you know..i have such stamina but i don't have the

power to hike that mount....i feel want to vomit a couple times on the road up tokun....so lame you know hahahaxz.....i think i delayed all of them about half an hour or more i think i keep on stop i tak boleh tahan...it kills...at there we find a new friends desmond lian.....the yougest among us i think hahahx....love to know new people.....hahahaxz
2nd time go out with wilson,its quite wierd when doing introduction,hi my name is wilson,vincent and im jaysen....3 of us have same pronouncation at the back of our name.....hahahxz

i don't know it took us how long to reach half of the mount tokun lah....but it sure relax where i can rest....have a chit chat there....hahahxz...enjoy gak pua si when the wind is so cold and relaxing...

after getting enough rest we off to the tower hahahxz...we didn't when up that far lah....just about 500m there is a nice scenery....wao...all the mist and able to see that mengkaung lake..... wao so big so attractive....

sorry ya....my htc wildfire maybe be disappointing ya....hahahxz
but it is sure nice to stay up here and enjoy the view...i love it...the breeze..i super nice...super cold....i will come here again....next time...next stop i think i want pi mengkuang lake have a visit liao....

suddenly silent again...

just finish eating my nasi lemak wao...so damn full later need to go run half an hour and go build up d....hahahahaxz...
while eating my aunt ask about cg aikxz...don't know how to answer also....the question suddenly come out and just all the sudden my mind totally blank.....don't know what to answer....
but until now when they asked why will break it is your fault or her fault,you got other one or she got the one le??i just tell im still single so does she...somehow i still protect her image....until now....my yi yi say she like her so much so beauty,cute and gao take people heart...hahahxz...this i have admit she good in this...

my aunt say i stupid hurt loh.....but really i am..she said maybe in future still can...future thing is unpredictable...let it be lah....not sad or what...just when this question me...i everytime really don't know how to answer....

祝君好

i so love this song.......

finally after one month

http://vitaronicbirdnest.yolasite.com/

my own site finally start liao...now what to do is start advertise it.......go go go......

no more thinking.....

I will change the whole me....do the best in my life....no more lam nua liao......

in future i will court you back,as one word i won't believe in fate.....everything is control by our hand.....for now i will completely put it aside......

in future i promise i won't be a self-centred person...only think of myself,what will benefit me

but may i be selfish a bit......cg.......i don't want change anything about you,to me you are a prefect girl for me......but there are one thing i wanna change....that is your last name....

im sorry

in this 6 days after knowing something i don't want to know.....my life turn into shit....i don't really what im thinking,what im thinking.....what is the prupose of my life.......

i have not been rational enough.....i hurt two person in a row....

chee chiang told me don't on her account le....if she know maybe you two can't even be friends....and he has the point now....cg angry me like hell le....but im for the last time i open her account....i am trying to search for a reason to let her go...i found it....it hurt enough and i feel is the time i should let it go le.....and i wish her to be happy......is me who don't respect her...i know i wrong so bad...so sucks so dick.....

michelle i sorry to her...i scold her without thinking....i scold her something that hurt her so much......i really sorry to her....i don't know what to do,what i suppose to do?i hurt two person in a row.....why i will become ane....in this 6 days i can't think rational....i don't know what i am doing.....

i just really don't know le....i really hurt them...i just so sucks....i really do

kena block

last night i at vct house...i saw cg on9.....den he use his pc to on9 too...but i notice that i can't see her....i toh feel weird d......

when last night i accidentally tear off the phone strap i know bad thing gonna happen....hahaxz...and this is the bad thing i get.....hahaxzx

to say i expect that she wil block me earlier than this eh....but i didn't expect she will so slow block me nia lah...since last time she block me in friendster......@@

i last night sent her a message before i sleep......i think is the best ending for both of us lah....this maybe the best for us to keep us apart for now....let go of all the past what happen after we break off....to say i very reluctant...but this is part of the process,i accept it and this is her choice i respect her....

live for this time gonna change really.....i will cope with it.....just i really hope her do be mature a bit.....atleast her parent will less worry her....when she out to Uni lah.......all the best to her....n wish you happy always.....

what is true love means?

true love have many defination i think...for this term i think no specific term for it....

i will say i have found mine,but that one isn't mine......

nothing i can do....saying this is a a dead person wish.......hahahxz
i think to get your true love to love you once is enough d.....it maybe not forever but atleast she do really love you once..even just a short moment.....she do say jaysen i love you so much...it's worth anything....

the moment when i feel i don't love you le,but actually i love you so much....love your everything....

even we now apart i will start to learn to let it go,when times comes,you will know whether she is yours....
there are feeling holding me back but nevertheless i will let it go...

if there is a chance for letting me say it again....i will say...i love you,you will always in my heart..i love you forever...

new life

the life without you....to say i very reluctant....

this morning when i fetch my dad to GH.....i pass by the road...the 1st time in form6 we when out after mini concert....you go to judo training.....i still remember you said dislike nia early in the morning hav'ta go jogging pass by the graveyard give you goosebump....hahahxz....and i pass by the place you stayed that night....it's the 1st time....i stil remember it clearly...that night i actually want to hold your hand while acc you go toilet just i no guts...i tell you before....that's is how our relationship begin....become more and more better......

to get back you is wasn't that simple...to let you realise how much i love you is more harder....your firewall is too strong liao....hahaxzx

every memory of you have been writen all over penang....the most difficult part is in my room....which i love most is...you sleep on my bed in the night...i scratch your head for you and sing song for you to get to sleep....just like a big baby....to say actually everytime you overnight in my house....i sleep with my mom i can't get enough sleep almost every 2 hour i will come into my room and see whether you have your blanket on...you got 'jalan cahaya' bo....see your sleeping position really funny...so rude...but thats the you i love...when everyone awake i will wake so and go in my room to lay beside you...everytime my mom and sister will scold me and ask me back to sleep....why must go sleep with her....i didn't say anything to them....but i just want to lay beside you and hug you to keep you warm..give you a morning kiss eventhough your mouth still very BUSUK....

i last night dream of you.....the time we play in my room...i press you body down so you can't fight back and i start to lick your face...hahahxz...you want lick me also can't...that is one of the sweetest moment when with you...when i geli your stomach....and you wanna fight back...because you know i very afraid eh...hahahxz...all those memory in my room...i can't forget it...maybe forever....

since you already have BF le....means you didn't hold any feeling back.....i guess....

since form4,the day i said i love you...i really do..even after years....really love you a lot....
even you are the girl that hurt me the most,but still you are the girl i love the most....maybe in future you will married another different person....but still i will always remember whom the girl...i crazy about and love the most...even i know you have a unsteady heart...but still i always believe in you that i can make you FALL IN LOVE with me....

it's time for me to move on future is an unpredictable thing maybe like jia wern said....have a long rest...when both of you really mature in handling a relationhip...and you still love her...go all for it....

i will always remember the smile of you.......

the last time i will think of it,the last time i will say it...all will be just part of my memories...of you and me.....eventhough i know you don't le....but still............
bii bii i love you forever my dearest....

i can't believe

after so long i still able to shed tears for u...........

the word i love most.....

曾经有一份至真的爱情摆着我前面，我没珍惜，到没了的时候，先至后悔莫及，尘世间最痛苦莫过于此
如果天可以让我回头的话，我会跟同个女人讲三个字，我爱你
如果是都要在这份爱情加上一个期限，我希望是一万年

time pass so fast

Another month pass by....every month of 11th....it reminds me of my greatest mistake of my life...always...eventhough 4 month already pass by....the things in my mind still haven't change a bit.....
life style has changed,my daily routine has changed,everything has changed ever since that day.....i never regret of the changes  that have been made....but i regret of the only thing..always the same thing...THE SAME DAMN THING.........i wondering how long this will keep on hunting me down.....

michelle said it is a golden opportunity to court her back.....but how??really i don't have any idea....is the same that if before sept before entering Uni,thats the end of the line....end of the story...

I'm happy with all the thing happens around me,meet so many friends,know so many interesting people,that colours up my life even more......but still no matter how i move on i still miss the old times....

i always said i so regret i enter form6....but its the time i do really cherish it....if i didn't enter form6 i never get to be so close with aaron,i will never met chee chiang..benedict.tsui fhang,keat siew.etc.etc....and if wasn't for form6 i think i never have the chance to get along with her d ba.....miss the time...every place have the memories....the hardest is it is in my room....where many things happen here.....

michelle said she really do think before to be with you forever....since she said want to go register with you....that time i do think it is a childish thinking,i'm still young,but im a bit regret on this....hahahxz but what can be done.she said that time i should say yes to her.....hahahxz...but all is just a memory....i really miracle do happens...i see she said she missing someone even at taiwan,she also post it out...but i know i not gonna be me...i'm old to her d...michelle ask me to be sporting,go contact with her but how??macam mana?i have no clue at all.....

is this a karma??for every 11th i always have to dream of the same nightmare...struggle for the same thing...wake up from dreams....every month and this is the 4th month....what can be done?

you left me with a BIG ?question mark? on my head........

haixz again

what a bad day today........usm can't get it...eventhough i expected but still i know this would be happening...hahaxz down................

just now i sit beside my mom,she asked me the same question again.is she back from taiwan liao??she got get USM bo??when i said she last night back from taiwan liao...my mom ask AGAIN....you can contact with her??ok with her liao??me say less contact liao...she said why dont contact her back...i avoid it..i just go inside the toilet.....and have a pee.....hhahahxzxz.....then come out my mom see straight to my eye....i just tell her...not i don't want talk with her,she is the one avoiding me....then i back to my room.....to blogging.....

mom i know you miss her,so hope she can be with me but....she don't want to.....i already don't dare to talk with her...i want to congratz her...but i don't think that is advicable evnthough michelle said just a congratz...is ok but i don't have the guts to message her.....i think let i be le lah.....mom....sorry....

so hope

sometimes i do think that why i want to do so many things?

if the old me here,he would said,rich or not is not a problem to me...want i want is to have a normal and stable life where i no need headache for so many things...i want to have normal life without any worries....

but what i can see now is what im doing now is finding more and more trouble....im getting into business....start to do my own business my own sales....what im trying to prove??i really no idea....i do feel very very tired...this ain't the life i seek for...i really don't know to say...i have think a lot this few days...all of this im doing now what am i trying to prove trying to achieve?is it something that i really want??i want a lot of thing....but once i done it there is no return but continue to walk on......

i really tired...i do feel want to find a business partner....at 1st i thought to work with my sis husband...but end up he disappointed me...and i think his not the typical guy can work with me...i do feel want to work with aaron but end up just me who doing all the work....he now studying...not suitable for business.....i think of chin soon....but he had failed the starting point of running sales...if in future he think this can't do again,then how??me do it again??i think of ah wee.....he is the best person that can help in this business......but in term of business i hope i can work with someone that i feel i can work with....he doesnt make me feel that....and for mason i want to work with him but....he's not the guy...tict chyuan.....i consider him and see...i don't really know his potential....but i know is he know a lot of people....i will consider him....but all need to wait....haixz.....headache

why

sometimes i just wonder why my mom will say this to me.....彩银最近怎样，想念她。Few days a go when you ask me to bring gf back when going to my biao jie wedding....when i said got, you so happy thought im going to bring her back again....

i don't want to see the face again when i said im till single....that sad face.....it make me very kek xim,you know...haixz....just one word of you....turns my mood down.......

something is in my mind again

hahaxz watch this movie posted by sharing4you.....this video hits what i desire most....

if im been given a chance to turn back the time....to the same date i always wish for.......11/2/2011....i know its impossible...but in other word i till hoping for her return.....where i can redo all my mistake and treat her more better......but still lifes goes on.......hope for the best....hoping for something to that is impossible

confuse........

actually...is it worth for waiting her again??sometimes i feel like giving up.....but eventually i didn't....im still have tears for her...just now see back her cousin picture,she post up ah gong birthday celebration..where inside got me n her picture....kissing....heart feel so pain....thinking why all will end up like this......but for now there is no reason to ask why,since there won't be answer........

sometimes i do think why i will fall in love to a girl that make my heart feel so uneasy and afraid.....i love her but she can't steady down her heart.....to walk with me to the rest of the life........10 more days it will be 11/june...where is 4 month....hahahaxz time flies so fast......as if everything just happen..

there are two thinking in my mind.........im still waiting for her or im afraid being hurt again....to say i have been very flirty after break up.....this is not me.....but this is the life of being single right......but i less to hand on my hp whole day message whole day......gaming life left so long time ago liao.....

su pei said i change a lot....in term of attitude,thinking,speech i have become mature.......but am i???hahahaxz but im happy.......atleast su pei still treat me as her friend......hahahaxz.....i still have a lot to learn....step by step to become mature.....there are a lot of stair for me to walk on,i know i can.......but as the same when i keep on moving forward she stay behind,is it mean this wanting me to let it go??i afraid the more i move on,the futher she be left behind......@@

life is being uneasy......especially in term of relationship....my mom still expect me to bring her back on this november to my cousin wedding....my mom really happy when just now i said bring your GF back ya...i said ok....she said you bring cg back are,ok back le??i can see my mom smile....but i said no im still single....i can feel my mom sad..in somehow i can't describe it......make my heart feel so sorrow.....DOWN.....

your choice........

if there are two song for you too choose??which will you choose???i will be the 火星男......because even many years i will wait you.......因为我愿意

maybe im stupid,when the day i said i love you....i love you with all my heart....bii

don't go breaking my heart.

after watching this movie......hahaxz...i can still feel so sweet...so warm......
to say when im watching,i still so miss her even after so long......eventhough i know for now nothing gonna happen she don't even want to reply me....i really don't know what also le....let it be d ba.......but still i know somewhere somehow im still waiting fo her.......

若你愿意，我愿意一心一意的当你的火星男。。。

LOVE

suddenly i feel that in the life of love,it is like a touch&go..........
when you finally TOUCH-es the girl,there GO-es you and her story
on this journey,many sweet&sour..in a relationship no way there will be sweet all the time....
when after a long journey,sure will reach another tol where you need to pay again....there is when thing starting to change...from 0km/hr you start to step on the accelerator to push to move forward,when all hav'ta start to stabilise your long term relationship...
in this long journey how many tol we hav'ta stop and start to move again....no one's know......until finally one day that both of you finally came to a stop where,the stop decide your both future...one fate when both reaches a stop either that both walk on to the separate road,or
continue drive on to the never ending journey...

when time comes where i finally will think of you and hoping that u will answer my final question that it always been in my mind.........that is

saturday.....outing......

this is my 1st time go straits quay...full with excitement...and want to be there so badly.....hahahxz....me,chee chiang and,irys went there.....hahaxz

1st stop sugar......gonna meet the ceo there.....quite some time didn't meet him d...tse meng....the endao ba

 cutie.........

 this the guy i said.....3 years didn't meet le...keep on suan siao me.....haixz..say till im so gay haixz

 but to say really happy to see u again bro

 erm erm....i forgot where i took this picture but im sure is there...

 the all famous charlie brown......theme restoran.....

 really nice is it??hahahxz....

 its nice but....

 but........only for the welcome sign cost me a lot le.....hahahxz the menu....wao....food aren't special and expensive...but the restoran decoration is nice......for me i won't be going this place to eat..unless my beloved 1 ask me to......hahahazx the problem is.....i dont have.....@@

 blie reefs........almost like manhantan fish market.....

 wrongly pronounce as a-gua,,,,,,,,@@

 full of people....this picture i took like takig the 2 girls picture abe

to say strait quay not that special...infront it may look so elegant.....but inside so so...for me i think gurney more class than strait quay........

move to next destination.....segafredo...........
at there we flirt a girl.just only 16..but to say im quite impress that she will work at this age....bravo....she good in talking also....hahahxzx....cc order a cocktail....GRAVEYARD........me??order duckbreast n fruit juice......irys...i dnt knw forgot jor.....i snatch her prawn.....yum yum....

after finish we move to winter warmer......but there got a thing happen.....cc lacture irys in term of business concept...in a harss way......she cried when she run away i hold onto her hand but she manage to run off.i follow her into girl TOILET again....she cried inside...haixz..she too weak le.......

the way i tam her....like the way i tam cg ane....sit beside her and talk with her i keep on sayang her head....to say when i tam her.....i treat her like cg ane....haixz....but nevermind lar.....i don't know what am i thinking also that time.......after she get down from the car....i start to emo le......hahahxz...because it remind me a lot....

saturday night really full of EXCITEMENT......hahahxzxz.........hiaxzxzx

this is what i took at qb........

 if girls this should be memorable ba........@@

 hahaxz no girls inside

 1st time enter girl toilet.......

 all nice eh motor bike....hahahxz

birthday

for this year birthday ntg special happen........there's is a thing happen....thanks to chee chiang...

he call me so fetch him near komtar area i thought got any emergancy....then i rush there loh...f.ck..traffic jam....along the jelutong highway..wao..the queue is so damn long hate.....what i hate to see when im driving is traffic jam...never change....hahahxz

is the road to butterworth jam....or can say is penang bridge jam lar....don't know those that want back to butterworth how....maybe 1-2 hours later gak reach home....hahahxz...

finally drive 80-100km/hr i finally reach main police station in penang.....at irys house....cc thought want go straits quay...but i told him i want to go there on saturday...then bo huat have'ta ppk irys...i have'ta rush back n meet my jie fu...pass him the book...i don't have time to explain the product to him also..next stop to qb watch fast&furous5...damn long didn't go out with vincent,doreen,melvin and shaojie le.....but only melvin give me the feeling..a weird feeling that make me tulan......but suak d lar....don't want think too much.....after movie vcc fetch doreen back her new house...i follow at their back...then next stop to pelita....have a chit-chat.....than back home....tiring day but still not sastify me.......

to say im happy my parent mostly every year will celebrate for me..but last year birthday is the only birthday do really make me happy....the cake,the cacat eh cake i won't forget it.....i still miss it so much....i miss the cake she do for me.....but i know i won't have the chance to taste it this year le.....everything is full of regret....so miss it.....haixzx.........even she still a ginna kuan..but still until now i do miss her...even i know she won't be missing me....but nevermind d lar......let it be le

10 more hours

gonna be  my birthday......i wish for something to happen but i know it won't be happening...so let it be lar....but i guess.....this year no celebration will happen for me....because i know it...family wont celebrate also le lar....let it be.....hahahxzxz.....today damn free...nothing to do......boring....sien wiat time to pass by by keep on reading birdnest article,.........read till headache le......

enjoyable day...

12pm++ reach alphine tower..............go swim almost 4hour......wao.......siok niii.....today got a special member join in.......that person....finally know how to swim but she dont know how to breath.....@@

her name is stephanie.........teach her...want teach till vomit blood.......hahahaxzxz.........enjoy swimming.....atleast i know how to swim frog style le..@@ hahahxz.....finally......

go for gym 1 hours more...learn many hardcore way........muscle almost tear off apart........but train to have nice body cut.......hahahxz.....me so noob only can lift up 2.5kg.......haixz.....

a bit suey......dont know how chee chiang smart....puncture....i know how to lift up the car....know the way to take out the tyre but...dont know why we all dont have the strength to unscrew it....i think i can burn out don't know how many calories le......just to unscrew it.....maybe toward SMART,im too STUPID to le.......the foreman reach and so easy he unscrew it le.....wahh......think of it we so useless.....haixz....more cham is stephanie....dont know how pi let the exhaust pipe burn.......really cham....that part bruish.....cham loh...

then wait for chee chiang to prepare his thing we depart at 7.30pm......go town find wah chong le....down to autocity......hahahxz..siok nu....

 at machalister road.......taken my stephanie....

 our big boss........endao leh

 see act innocence,as always when take photo with me...@@

 endao vct......next stop tambun ya

 leng lui.......keep on geli my whole body eh.......beh tahan

 my kimuchi ramen....eat tillllllllll sien.....why i still order it??because it spicy.....but it fail my tongue

 we all almost finish eating le

 pity some girl......havta eat mine....her set so come so slow

 act leng lui ar......

 when going to mcd to order food......chee chiang stomach really big


at there really dont know what to eat....sien....end up lazy to choose i decide takehana.......haixz......boring....the service there got bit sucks.....lucky im in a good mood....i didn't let her kena....but got a new waitress...haixz...chee chiang play her till haixz..pity her......but ok lar...today enjoy the day...hahaxz...after this now MAY le......where i havta stop and pia my sales le..........less enjoy my day le...