Thursday, 31 March 2011
decided again
Choy gin,i will wait you again......i will wait the day you return to me again.....
1 word i love you so much......
after last night
what i hate most is financial problem,wao..just bank in rm1180 to madam.lim.my public bank account almost dry up...to say im facing financial problem that i have worried so much...
i never thought it will come so fast...i because i've calculated that this problem i will be facing at around june...but now april i kena liao...totally dry up...faint...
but like gordon said financial problem is not a problem,when we born we have nothing bring along with us...it's just paper with few number on it...how many effort you put in =how many money you will get...
he tell me a lot of thing last night how to be strong he wish to see me strong one day,you 20 liao...adult liao...you are learning to be an adult to be strong.you have grown a lot,but still not enough..you last time tend to be strong because of her,now you can't reply on that pain to continue your life,i know you love CG so much but she wont care what your problem now,last time maybe will but now i die she also wont drop a tears for you.what for you keep on rely on that pain to grow up..stop it and be a man...don't rely on that pain don't mention about her.don't ever....
why people will stress because they look back.when we make a decision go all the way never look back,when you start to look back is when you will start to feel stress...we can't change the past,so why not you change your future?be a man dude....i know you can..
he tell me one thing hahaxz...every girl want her man is stronger than herself...if you want her back.be strong....never show you are weak infront of her....never complaint just show off.......
NEVER COMPLAINT,JUST SHOW OFF..i will remember it always gordon.....hahaxz...thats why people around me think im a success because i never complaint and never look weak...thats what man is all about....
i will remember it always...i will be strong....i will tell myself even the hardest condition i will only be strong...even the inner me is soft....thanks bro....im happy to knowing you..in my life....
i never thought it will come so fast...i because i've calculated that this problem i will be facing at around june...but now april i kena liao...totally dry up...faint...
but like gordon said financial problem is not a problem,when we born we have nothing bring along with us...it's just paper with few number on it...how many effort you put in =how many money you will get...
he tell me a lot of thing last night how to be strong he wish to see me strong one day,you 20 liao...adult liao...you are learning to be an adult to be strong.you have grown a lot,but still not enough..you last time tend to be strong because of her,now you can't reply on that pain to continue your life,i know you love CG so much but she wont care what your problem now,last time maybe will but now i die she also wont drop a tears for you.what for you keep on rely on that pain to grow up..stop it and be a man...don't rely on that pain don't mention about her.don't ever....
why people will stress because they look back.when we make a decision go all the way never look back,when you start to look back is when you will start to feel stress...we can't change the past,so why not you change your future?be a man dude....i know you can..
he tell me one thing hahaxz...every girl want her man is stronger than herself...if you want her back.be strong....never show you are weak infront of her....never complaint just show off.......
NEVER COMPLAINT,JUST SHOW OFF..i will remember it always gordon.....hahaxz...thats why people around me think im a success because i never complaint and never look weak...thats what man is all about....
i will remember it always...i will be strong....i will tell myself even the hardest condition i will only be strong...even the inner me is soft....thanks bro....im happy to knowing you..in my life....
Wednesday, 30 March 2011
i never officially celebrate valentine before...
i already 20 this year...to say i never really feel the feeling of valentine,since i dint really celebrate with a girl i truely love before...include this time...hahaxz i think this is also my last time enjoy valentine day which i don't really enjoy at all....
i remember i prepared 6roses,1 chocolate cake,dark chocolate ferrero rocher,a letter that i wrote by myself(my 1st time i wrote to a girl)the most expensive eh...lazo diamond necklace..
i left this on her table and left her house and accompany my brother to spread love to all over penang...hahaxz...
before i leave i also produce one movie chip that i want to let her watch...all of this is my valentine day supprise.that i tend to give her when she back from her busy work but im the one who spoil all of this...hahaxz
this movie clip i don't dare to open it again....the last time i watch it i cried badly.....i just leave it there and let it be a memory....hahaxz
maybe single life is a bit hard but i think single is better lah....don't want so many headache...since im the kind dislike problem eh...maybe this life suits me more ba...hahaxz...closing my heart but in some where i know i still waiting for her....i just watch back the video....my tears drop again...... what to say i still so miss her....
i remember i prepared 6roses,1 chocolate cake,dark chocolate ferrero rocher,a letter that i wrote by myself(my 1st time i wrote to a girl)the most expensive eh...lazo diamond necklace..
before i leave i also produce one movie chip that i want to let her watch...all of this is my valentine day supprise.that i tend to give her when she back from her busy work but im the one who spoil all of this...hahaxz
maybe single life is a bit hard but i think single is better lah....don't want so many headache...since im the kind dislike problem eh...maybe this life suits me more ba...hahaxz...closing my heart but in some where i know i still waiting for her....i just watch back the video....my tears drop again...... what to say i still so miss her....
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
im happy
hahaxz,last night i went to her house,bring along tons of book to her,hope that she will read it lah....
while waiting her,i talk a lot with her mom,teach me do that sushi hahaxz..nice...i love prawn as always...
waiting her to come back,see her car drive in her house make me so excited hahaxz.but only me who keep on look outside the window and wait her to return...hahaxz lame is it??i also don't know...
see her lay down infront the TV,eating the 'chai kuih' hahaxz..hand so oily..dirty eh...but she enjoy..i also got eat a bit lah...quite nice eh...yummy...
waiting her to finish her bath and dinner,is a bit boring but nevermind lah atleast got TV let me watch,hahaxz eventhough is boring lah..
8pm she ask me to went up to her room,to carry up the books to her and i want to get picture from her too...see her watching that korean version恶作剧之吻,while watching the wedding part hahaxz,to say im imagine we both married hahaxz,but i know it not gonna be real liao eh..just imagine loh..
talking with her,she just don't really like answering me,i want to talk with her but end up i feel no point to talk with her since she doesn't even want to answer me and im the 1 who do the talking..hahaxz..haixz..but see her laugh and smile so happy,im happy le atleast that i can feel the old her returning and her life is much more better now hahaxz..even she doesn't love me anymore but im happy she can have her happy life now...
when im going back,i think it going be the last time i touch her head and say 要乖乖知道吗？and she said 小心驾车啦.i turn my head back and said ok bye bye...and when enter my car i shout at her said 记得读我给你的书啊.and i wave my hand to her..she wave back to me and there goes she close the door and went into her house...everytime i going back i just so reluctant to go back,i miss this moment a lot you know..i hoping she to message me and say drive carefully k.msg me when you reach home..this msg no longer appear in my hp when i going back home..
i just so miss her,even now...while think back i still so miss the moment with her...to say for her this is the longest relationship and so do i...even now i still have tears left for me...because my tears just drop...
choon lin said taurus guy is like that need months to let go of her ex...i know..to say i love her already 4years le,hahaxz...almost 5 years le...can say so...i said deep inside my heart in some where i know i still waiting her..waiting her to return..i know is useless because she already love other guy maybe now she chatting with other new guy le...hahaxz...but truely i miss her so much...but choonlin said if she really want you back dont accept unless you really feel that she have change...if not in future,even you have change,she doesnt change and still the type like new things...end up breaking up nia...if she still treat love is a game...
but in my heart truely im still waiting her,future thing i really don't know le,just 走一步，看一步...
i love cg so much.even so many things happen...for now her heart already blocking me from entering le...i just so miss when cudding with her and kiss her lips..i won't forget that moment when i press her on my bed and lick her lips..n jilak her face hahaxz...while she cant jilak me...i miss that a lot....
for now if she have regain back the happy life once she used to have im happy for her.if she finda guy that she loves and her family would accept him like her faily accepted me...i will be very happy for her le...because as i said to her if in future you found someone handsome,taller,smarter and richer,able to give you a brighter future go ahead...i will be happy for you...k...because I LOVE YOU.
while waiting her,i talk a lot with her mom,teach me do that sushi hahaxz..nice...i love prawn as always...
waiting her to come back,see her car drive in her house make me so excited hahaxz.but only me who keep on look outside the window and wait her to return...hahaxz lame is it??i also don't know...
see her lay down infront the TV,eating the 'chai kuih' hahaxz..hand so oily..dirty eh...but she enjoy..i also got eat a bit lah...quite nice eh...yummy...
waiting her to finish her bath and dinner,is a bit boring but nevermind lah atleast got TV let me watch,hahaxz eventhough is boring lah..
8pm she ask me to went up to her room,to carry up the books to her and i want to get picture from her too...see her watching that korean version恶作剧之吻,while watching the wedding part hahaxz,to say im imagine we both married hahaxz,but i know it not gonna be real liao eh..just imagine loh..
talking with her,she just don't really like answering me,i want to talk with her but end up i feel no point to talk with her since she doesn't even want to answer me and im the 1 who do the talking..hahaxz..haixz..but see her laugh and smile so happy,im happy le atleast that i can feel the old her returning and her life is much more better now hahaxz..even she doesn't love me anymore but im happy she can have her happy life now...
when im going back,i think it going be the last time i touch her head and say 要乖乖知道吗？and she said 小心驾车啦.i turn my head back and said ok bye bye...and when enter my car i shout at her said 记得读我给你的书啊.and i wave my hand to her..she wave back to me and there goes she close the door and went into her house...everytime i going back i just so reluctant to go back,i miss this moment a lot you know..i hoping she to message me and say drive carefully k.msg me when you reach home..this msg no longer appear in my hp when i going back home..
i just so miss her,even now...while think back i still so miss the moment with her...to say for her this is the longest relationship and so do i...even now i still have tears left for me...because my tears just drop...
choon lin said taurus guy is like that need months to let go of her ex...i know..to say i love her already 4years le,hahaxz...almost 5 years le...can say so...i said deep inside my heart in some where i know i still waiting her..waiting her to return..i know is useless because she already love other guy maybe now she chatting with other new guy le...hahaxz...but truely i miss her so much...but choonlin said if she really want you back dont accept unless you really feel that she have change...if not in future,even you have change,she doesnt change and still the type like new things...end up breaking up nia...if she still treat love is a game...
but in my heart truely im still waiting her,future thing i really don't know le,just 走一步，看一步...
i love cg so much.even so many things happen...for now her heart already blocking me from entering le...i just so miss when cudding with her and kiss her lips..i won't forget that moment when i press her on my bed and lick her lips..n jilak her face hahaxz...while she cant jilak me...i miss that a lot....
for now if she have regain back the happy life once she used to have im happy for her.if she finda guy that she loves and her family would accept him like her faily accepted me...i will be very happy for her le...because as i said to her if in future you found someone handsome,taller,smarter and richer,able to give you a brighter future go ahead...i will be happy for you...k...because I LOVE YOU.
Monday, 28 March 2011
flirty life coming back walao eh.....excited and enjoy
Tomorrow going out with vct and a girl...dunno who is the pretty will be hahax.....go watch cinema...movie day...sei...this month expenses a bit over le...but nvm lah...enjoy 1st...wkakax...
then tomorrow will off to swim...vct said you see girls wear bikini before??i said nope....tomorrow better wear contact lens hahaxz...say gak ane like got bit hiao loh...but who cares im single now....play gak song song...hope gordon won't envy me lah.....
i remember i ask vct tomorrow ask that girl wear bikini do gym lah...he said if she will we both sure die....nose bleeding hahaxz....me don't know lah...god bless that tomorrow don't rain...DON'T RAIN....
then tomorrow will off to swim...vct said you see girls wear bikini before??i said nope....tomorrow better wear contact lens hahaxz...say gak ane like got bit hiao loh...but who cares im single now....play gak song song...hope gordon won't envy me lah.....
i remember i ask vct tomorrow ask that girl wear bikini do gym lah...he said if she will we both sure die....nose bleeding hahaxz....me don't know lah...god bless that tomorrow don't rain...DON'T RAIN....
enjoy the weather.....
hah quite enjoy today lah......1pm go QB find grassy talk about sales thing...then he decided to join next monday...hahaxz...talk with him,kapsiao with him almost...3 hour....just talk and have a chit-chat...
5pm back to daily life,swimming,then gym.....after that seek for food again.....today worst....haizxz....
want find burger eat eh,but the end find bo.....gok rain wor,end up go SUBWAY.....the last time i remember is bonodori...when i went with cg n jiawern sweet memory there and is my 1st time when out with jia wern....
aikxz....i don't have the picture leh......hahaxz....miss that moment....
then go SECRET RECIPE......wao....eat till.....rm15 nia....2 piece of cake....
this is my cake....dunno what chocolate what what d...
this is vct eat eh.....dunno what.....cheese cake...
endao leh....
hahaxzx...so relax....go ruen fei gintell....shake shake......shake gak very siok loh......sure will buy one from you le ruen fei....but wait i able to do my sales better lah....wkakaxz....today si pek enjoy
what i most enjoy is....waoooo the wind soooooo strong....strong till almost flow me off.....wao...i love wind i love rain.....especially when it touches my face wao.... love it so much
5pm back to daily life,swimming,then gym.....after that seek for food again.....today worst....haizxz....
want find burger eat eh,but the end find bo.....gok rain wor,end up go SUBWAY.....the last time i remember is bonodori...when i went with cg n jiawern sweet memory there and is my 1st time when out with jia wern....
aikxz....i don't have the picture leh......hahaxz....miss that moment....
then go SECRET RECIPE......wao....eat till.....rm15 nia....2 piece of cake....
hahaxzx...so relax....go ruen fei gintell....shake shake......shake gak very siok loh......sure will buy one from you le ruen fei....but wait i able to do my sales better lah....wkakaxz....today si pek enjoy
what i most enjoy is....waoooo the wind soooooo strong....strong till almost flow me off.....wao...i love wind i love rain.....especially when it touches my face wao.... love it so much
Friday, 25 March 2011
thanks......i love u all
in this period of time,i think almost 2 month le,so many things happen...good or bad....
i really thank to those who stand beside me and give me courage to move on,if not you all,i wouldn't have grow up so fast....to control my temper,my attitude,become mature and a TRUEMAN....
in this period of time,to say i really dont know i can change so fast,because im a hardheaded person,even last time cg ask me to change,it takes me a lot of time to change,but not my temper...but now i have change...
darren n jt they both tells me,take time let both of you rest,learn from the past and grow up,when you be able to do that,you a TRUEMAN.....i love this so much...be a trueman..learn from the past...what you both talks really alike,hahaxzx..jt ask darren and see,i confuse don't know whom im talking to....
gordon is such a good guy,he teach me a lot how to become a man......how to control temper....many thing he taught me in this period of time......hahaxzxz.....he told me,if she don't cherish what you do,no need angry eh,because is her lost not you,you have nothing to lose eh....told her this then next time she will cherish what u do more le,like why supei will so cherish what i do.hahaxz....i hear le also funny....
chin soon,thanks for accompany me during this period eventhough,that you go pak tor with siew peng,you still bring me do your lightbulb,go 1st avenue,redbox sing K...hahaxz...really thanks dude....thanks brother...for talking with me till late night....till 4want 5am le....really thanks....thanks willing to be my listener...thanks for everything....
aaron hahaxz thanks dude,thank for asking me go your popo house eat,after 4days didn't eat single thing into my empty stomach...thanks for giving me courage.....guan xim me...even you now at IMU le....so damn miss you brother...thanks for cheering me up,become my ear...
choon lin,thanks you a lot...if not because of the essay you ask me to read,i wouldn't have change,hahaxz...i really thank you bro....you help me a lot in this time,teach me,make me grow....teach me how to live like a guy...thanks to you,i have learn many thing that need to learn to survive in this cruel society...cheer me up....tell me what is needed to live a life....thanks bro....really gam xia...even you working at s'pore,you still willing to care me so much......really touching
jia wern,eventhough you not at m'sia in this period of time,i know you very care what is happen between me n cg...thanks for you encouragement,what you send to me i always keep it so i can see it and give me courage when im down...to say you such a nice girl,i really thanks in my life can meet tiok a girl like you,so nice...so caring...im happy that cg is your best friends..hahazxz..even you don't have any experience in love but you try your best to give me advice...thanks jw...i sure miss you a lot...thanks...when you back penang,bring you go penang eat many many holiao food that you gonna miss it ya.....all in my account...ya
choy gin,to say at 1st when im still blindfolded,i keep on struggling is it me not good enough for you,why would you leave me again....even i chase you back so hard...but because the day you choose to leave me,you given me the chance to become a better man that i be able to handle my life in a more proper way,change my temper and attitude..if you thats have change my life,thats why i never angry you,but i appreciate it.that you given me the chance...to restart my life...
even so many things happen between us,i know in your heart you sure scare that you will hurt me again,but i believe in you..i know you can..so many challenge happen between us,since the day i know you,on and break,after 2 years,we on and now break again..so many challenge between us as i said to you before it like a challenge given my the god to test us....whether our love is true or not..in my heart after so many thing happen,i know its,TRUE to me...so i've pass the test...
life is like this,god give us a lot of test so we can grow up and learn..as many obstacle happen in your life it maybe easy one,it maybe be hard...but if we can take up the challenge,it would make us to be a more better person....a more happy person....as i said nothing is the end of the world....we able to survive through it if we want...
cg i really thank you,thanks for making me a better guy...if wasnt you,i maybe still the jaysen you know when in form6..thanks cg..you really a girl thats helps me alot...gamxia...i hope you will think this as a challenge...that given to you so it would make your life better....i hope i will be the guy accompany you in this hard time of yours...because i love you....and i always do...
i really thank to those who stand beside me and give me courage to move on,if not you all,i wouldn't have grow up so fast....to control my temper,my attitude,become mature and a TRUEMAN....
in this period of time,to say i really dont know i can change so fast,because im a hardheaded person,even last time cg ask me to change,it takes me a lot of time to change,but not my temper...but now i have change...
darren n jt they both tells me,take time let both of you rest,learn from the past and grow up,when you be able to do that,you a TRUEMAN.....i love this so much...be a trueman..learn from the past...what you both talks really alike,hahaxzx..jt ask darren and see,i confuse don't know whom im talking to....
gordon is such a good guy,he teach me a lot how to become a man......how to control temper....many thing he taught me in this period of time......hahaxzxz.....he told me,if she don't cherish what you do,no need angry eh,because is her lost not you,you have nothing to lose eh....told her this then next time she will cherish what u do more le,like why supei will so cherish what i do.hahaxz....i hear le also funny....
chin soon,thanks for accompany me during this period eventhough,that you go pak tor with siew peng,you still bring me do your lightbulb,go 1st avenue,redbox sing K...hahaxz...really thanks dude....thanks brother...for talking with me till late night....till 4want 5am le....really thanks....thanks willing to be my listener...thanks for everything....
aaron hahaxz thanks dude,thank for asking me go your popo house eat,after 4days didn't eat single thing into my empty stomach...thanks for giving me courage.....guan xim me...even you now at IMU le....so damn miss you brother...thanks for cheering me up,become my ear...
choon lin,thanks you a lot...if not because of the essay you ask me to read,i wouldn't have change,hahaxz...i really thank you bro....you help me a lot in this time,teach me,make me grow....teach me how to live like a guy...thanks to you,i have learn many thing that need to learn to survive in this cruel society...cheer me up....tell me what is needed to live a life....thanks bro....really gam xia...even you working at s'pore,you still willing to care me so much......really touching
jia wern,eventhough you not at m'sia in this period of time,i know you very care what is happen between me n cg...thanks for you encouragement,what you send to me i always keep it so i can see it and give me courage when im down...to say you such a nice girl,i really thanks in my life can meet tiok a girl like you,so nice...so caring...im happy that cg is your best friends..hahazxz..even you don't have any experience in love but you try your best to give me advice...thanks jw...i sure miss you a lot...thanks...when you back penang,bring you go penang eat many many holiao food that you gonna miss it ya.....all in my account...ya
choy gin,to say at 1st when im still blindfolded,i keep on struggling is it me not good enough for you,why would you leave me again....even i chase you back so hard...but because the day you choose to leave me,you given me the chance to become a better man that i be able to handle my life in a more proper way,change my temper and attitude..if you thats have change my life,thats why i never angry you,but i appreciate it.that you given me the chance...to restart my life...
even so many things happen between us,i know in your heart you sure scare that you will hurt me again,but i believe in you..i know you can..so many challenge happen between us,since the day i know you,on and break,after 2 years,we on and now break again..so many challenge between us as i said to you before it like a challenge given my the god to test us....whether our love is true or not..in my heart after so many thing happen,i know its,TRUE to me...so i've pass the test...
life is like this,god give us a lot of test so we can grow up and learn..as many obstacle happen in your life it maybe easy one,it maybe be hard...but if we can take up the challenge,it would make us to be a more better person....a more happy person....as i said nothing is the end of the world....we able to survive through it if we want...
cg i really thank you,thanks for making me a better guy...if wasnt you,i maybe still the jaysen you know when in form6..thanks cg..you really a girl thats helps me alot...gamxia...i hope you will think this as a challenge...that given to you so it would make your life better....i hope i will be the guy accompany you in this hard time of yours...because i love you....and i always do...
such a nice weather......
today i think is my 2nd time in this year sleep untill almost 12pm gak wake nu,few days ago at her house sleep almost 12.30pm gak wake i think haaaaahhaaaaa....weather is too siok d.....so cold till have cover a blanket,roll up just like a sushi roll....hahaxz....
but still even in this cold weather it still can't cool down the feeling towards her.....i still so miss her....i can't force her to do anything just let her rest for now.....she need more rest then me.....i would like to ask what is in her mind but,this is just forcing her.....she will be more stress,let ther think by her own now.what i can do is stand beside her and wait.....wait the right moment....
if she wasn't working now i think she will be laying on her bed enjoy the cold weather......hahaxz.....just to say i miss her so much.......haixz......hehexzx
but still even in this cold weather it still can't cool down the feeling towards her.....i still so miss her....i can't force her to do anything just let her rest for now.....she need more rest then me.....i would like to ask what is in her mind but,this is just forcing her.....she will be more stress,let ther think by her own now.what i can do is stand beside her and wait.....wait the right moment....
if she wasn't working now i think she will be laying on her bed enjoy the cold weather......hahaxz.....just to say i miss her so much.......haixz......hehexzx
enjoy my day in QB
Haha know zheng cheng for so long this is the 1st time i went out with him nu...hahaxz....he is my brother lai,,nickname as school grass...校草,special is it??hahax
our 1st stop is FISH MARKET...my nightmare
1st time taking picture while eating
endao ba grass....
this dishes i won't forgot eh..........scare of it even now....
i won't forgot the 1st time i went to eat v her...the end is the same we both eat gak want vomit.....boom...
is he so handsome kekexz!!!
his big tummy......see he ate a lot...
total cost...wao.....gt rm40++is his sis eh...
then we both go cyc play game,then movie....sucker punch....the movie got a bit lame,after all but i like the meaning back of this movie,even the road is hard,no matter how hard is it,if the cost of our own life to obtain our freedom,everything is worth to try...
then FISH SPA....1st time siok...
qi kek leh wkakakaxzxz
don't know why so many fish rather suck my leg then zheng cheng eh
so siok siok enjoy wkakaxz.....when i fish spa i feel want to bring her come her,i think she didn't try it before....got chance i will bring her come,if i have the chance
see the grass smile till so endao..waooooooo,so electrify me....
We both brought a watch at The ROOM.....quite nice but not so expensive lah.......hahaxz.....today so enjoy going out with grassy nah.....so enjoy....hope next time can go out again hahaxz....
our 1st stop is FISH MARKET...my nightmare
this dishes i won't forgot eh..........scare of it even now....
then we both go cyc play game,then movie....sucker punch....the movie got a bit lame,after all but i like the meaning back of this movie,even the road is hard,no matter how hard is it,if the cost of our own life to obtain our freedom,everything is worth to try...
then FISH SPA....1st time siok...
We both brought a watch at The ROOM.....quite nice but not so expensive lah.......hahaxz.....today so enjoy going out with grassy nah.....so enjoy....hope next time can go out again hahaxz....
Thursday, 24 March 2011
i almost meet my end
lucky i ask my mom check the car because it shake till very cham when i speed,lucky that day i when to her house nothing happen...phew..very geli to see hear what my mom said about the tyre,haixz...the tyre swell le,it gonna explode anytime if i continue drive...lucky....
hahaxz scare me gak i can't sleep jor lucky lucky.....really haizxz...i can't imagine if i continue drive.....i would have R.I.P. all my friends have to come visit me every year jor.....scare scare....
lucky now nothing lah....phew....happy+scare
hahaxz scare me gak i can't sleep jor lucky lucky.....really haizxz...i can't imagine if i continue drive.....i would have R.I.P. all my friends have to come visit me every year jor.....scare scare....
lucky now nothing lah....phew....happy+scare
Wednesday, 23 March 2011
april coming le....why i still miss you??
you today start work,i so worried...last night i chat with choon lin till 5am...from our conversation,i know i still so care and love her...
七情六欲，我败给了情,but to say i don't know why i will so love you choy gin,even maybe for you now in your mind just the guy is the best,what he do for you will make you touch,i last night saw ur post(
haha,sometimes i feel im such a failure,i lose you twice in my life le,on tues when i go over your house i never think i still will have tear drop for you,i promise myself to be strong,don't cry infront of you,but i just can't stand it...just cg,my hearts is soft even i act strong.to face this world,to face the reality that i lost you le...
i try to educate you in the way i learn,the way i grow up.maybe in my heart somehow there are jealousy that makes me tell your parent about that guy,when sinyen said when you tell her parent,i just so blame myself,i cause this suffer on you,maybe you will never love me le,maybe you will hate me,maybe in your mind im disturbing you and that guy.cg im sorry.sorry because of my selfishness.that cause you to suffer like this...you can blame me,you can hate me,but 1 word im sorry..im just so sorry.
haixz...i don't dare to think that you will love me again,because 1 of the reason to cause you so suffer is me.i don't dare to ask so much le.i love you ,i miss you but i know you will never love me again,nor miss me again..im trying hard to put down all the things d,4 years le,i love you so much..from the day i said i love you,i do really love you with all my hearts until now,the love in me towards you still so fresh.maybe i need time to recover my wound,when thing long le,i maybe able to put down everything.to start over.you are the girl i love so much,more then my 1st.i have a lot of things want to do with you,when last night me n choon lin plan want go KL play,i hope to bring you along,but i know we won't be having the chance le,since you going taiwan also,even you dint go taiwan,you also won't going with me le,among me,aaron,choon lin and chin soon,all have gf only me dont't have...means i go do light bulb..hahazx...haixz...
i just so miss you cg,i miss you so much....and im really really sorry....
七情六欲，我败给了情,but to say i don't know why i will so love you choy gin,even maybe for you now in your mind just the guy is the best,what he do for you will make you touch,i last night saw ur post(
haha,sometimes i feel im such a failure,i lose you twice in my life le,on tues when i go over your house i never think i still will have tear drop for you,i promise myself to be strong,don't cry infront of you,but i just can't stand it...just cg,my hearts is soft even i act strong.to face this world,to face the reality that i lost you le...
i try to educate you in the way i learn,the way i grow up.maybe in my heart somehow there are jealousy that makes me tell your parent about that guy,when sinyen said when you tell her parent,i just so blame myself,i cause this suffer on you,maybe you will never love me le,maybe you will hate me,maybe in your mind im disturbing you and that guy.cg im sorry.sorry because of my selfishness.that cause you to suffer like this...you can blame me,you can hate me,but 1 word im sorry..im just so sorry.
haixz...i don't dare to think that you will love me again,because 1 of the reason to cause you so suffer is me.i don't dare to ask so much le.i love you ,i miss you but i know you will never love me again,nor miss me again..im trying hard to put down all the things d,4 years le,i love you so much..from the day i said i love you,i do really love you with all my hearts until now,the love in me towards you still so fresh.maybe i need time to recover my wound,when thing long le,i maybe able to put down everything.to start over.you are the girl i love so much,more then my 1st.i have a lot of things want to do with you,when last night me n choon lin plan want go KL play,i hope to bring you along,but i know we won't be having the chance le,since you going taiwan also,even you dint go taiwan,you also won't going with me le,among me,aaron,choon lin and chin soon,all have gf only me dont't have...means i go do light bulb..hahazx...haixz...
i just so miss you cg,i miss you so much....and im really really sorry....
im a disney lover
just found out this little piece of song that sooooo attractive....so miss all the disney song...so damn miss it....
hear it ba....nice
hear it ba....nice
Tuesday, 22 March 2011
i never thought i still have tears for u
Just back from her house,last night hear music in her room till i sleep jor.aikxz..don't know should say im happy or sad....i also don't know lah....
to say i feel so funny when that time still so sure want to break up with me because she feel so tired with my attitude and my temper...conclude she tempt to get back her freedom,but now she want to be with that motherfucker,but she lose all her freedom and what once she has,and the mst importent part is she hurt all her family just in order to be that guy,you think is it funny???to me i think she's just so naive....
that guy appear in his life seems like taking everything from her,and she still please to let her take it...WEIRD..i just tell her together with him you happy mar??she said yes..then why i see is you keep in arge with your family,angry this angry that.hate this hate thats is this what you so called happiness??is this the type of life you always wanted???see this is when people who blindfold by anger.
i just never think that lacturing you will make me cried again....one word you know you so selfish....you never think for the other what you think you want you will get it even you hurting those who really care you and love you so much..
i know how to cherish so i know how to love,but you ne??just thought love is a game when tired,no longer fresh then throw it away....is this the type of love you want??is it so siok to play with other feeling just to overcome the loneliness in you??i just told her if you don't know how to cherish something please don't take it up.because you end up dropping it..
i just hope you can surely think for yourself d,dont so naive le.....if you continue like this 1 word,you end up destroying your own life....
Maybe i still love you and i want the best for you,but like they said now in her mind just got that guy,what he do for her is almighty,what he doing cg will just think he so good.and what you do for her is junk.what for you want to do thing for someone that don't know how to cherish you.all i can say is..i miss her..but i know she no longer love me...she just so love that guy...now...hahaxz..
i just so hope to see her smile again,for now??i just know her smile is so fake...n bitter...
to say i feel so funny when that time still so sure want to break up with me because she feel so tired with my attitude and my temper...conclude she tempt to get back her freedom,but now she want to be with that motherfucker,but she lose all her freedom and what once she has,and the mst importent part is she hurt all her family just in order to be that guy,you think is it funny???to me i think she's just so naive....
that guy appear in his life seems like taking everything from her,and she still please to let her take it...WEIRD..i just tell her together with him you happy mar??she said yes..then why i see is you keep in arge with your family,angry this angry that.hate this hate thats is this what you so called happiness??is this the type of life you always wanted???see this is when people who blindfold by anger.
i just never think that lacturing you will make me cried again....one word you know you so selfish....you never think for the other what you think you want you will get it even you hurting those who really care you and love you so much..
i know how to cherish so i know how to love,but you ne??just thought love is a game when tired,no longer fresh then throw it away....is this the type of love you want??is it so siok to play with other feeling just to overcome the loneliness in you??i just told her if you don't know how to cherish something please don't take it up.because you end up dropping it..
i just hope you can surely think for yourself d,dont so naive le.....if you continue like this 1 word,you end up destroying your own life....
Maybe i still love you and i want the best for you,but like they said now in her mind just got that guy,what he do for her is almighty,what he doing cg will just think he so good.and what you do for her is junk.what for you want to do thing for someone that don't know how to cherish you.all i can say is..i miss her..but i know she no longer love me...she just so love that guy...now...hahaxz..
i just so hope to see her smile again,for now??i just know her smile is so fake...n bitter...
Monday, 21 March 2011
choon lin back le
today choon lin back from s'pore for few days leave.but gonna back aftr 23 i think forgot le...
to say early in the morning,10am go out with him until now gak back home...go qb,eat at old town...at Dtrend have hair cut....him lah not me rm38 eh.....expensive for me nu.but pi buy a lot of thing like underwear lah...such thing lah..
after that back his house,eat his mom cook...hahaxz nice nice....yum yum i love the bak kut teh...
then go 1st avenue,buy movie ticket hahaxz,not for me but choon lin himself lah for her gf eh....they today go pak tor...so sweet nu,hahaxz..so happy for him cause the girl so good....
he teaches me something today,拿得起放得下.in other case but for the problem should i throw it aside??to say until now i still cant get my answer.he just said is you love her what you should think is the future while not the past or present...his right but aikxz...i need to settle down for this problem for now i still cant get the answer i need..maybe i need more time ba..
to say when i said to choon lin about the feeling when she tell me,she on with that guy on that night they when to movie,i cried just now....my tear fall again....haixz....just to say i still so miss her....
he ask me to give up search for a girl that can really think for you and mature,i said since f3 i live in such pain le,i don't really want le,im very tired d..but if she back maybe i will accept her only if she mature le,but he said this thing you should know,it gonna take a very long time...i know..you got read my blog right...i just so scare im the one keep on improve and keep moving forward and you just lagging behind,and i won't be having the chance to see her smile again...haixz..
hahaxz even i very enjoy talk with him just now singing,laughing all the way..very enjoy,thanks for to be my listener dude....hope you can be with your gf forever ya......you have my blessing.....
to say early in the morning,10am go out with him until now gak back home...go qb,eat at old town...at Dtrend have hair cut....him lah not me rm38 eh.....expensive for me nu.but pi buy a lot of thing like underwear lah...such thing lah..
after that back his house,eat his mom cook...hahaxz nice nice....yum yum i love the bak kut teh...
then go 1st avenue,buy movie ticket hahaxz,not for me but choon lin himself lah for her gf eh....they today go pak tor...so sweet nu,hahaxz..so happy for him cause the girl so good....
he teaches me something today,拿得起放得下.in other case but for the problem should i throw it aside??to say until now i still cant get my answer.he just said is you love her what you should think is the future while not the past or present...his right but aikxz...i need to settle down for this problem for now i still cant get the answer i need..maybe i need more time ba..
to say when i said to choon lin about the feeling when she tell me,she on with that guy on that night they when to movie,i cried just now....my tear fall again....haixz....just to say i still so miss her....
he ask me to give up search for a girl that can really think for you and mature,i said since f3 i live in such pain le,i don't really want le,im very tired d..but if she back maybe i will accept her only if she mature le,but he said this thing you should know,it gonna take a very long time...i know..you got read my blog right...i just so scare im the one keep on improve and keep moving forward and you just lagging behind,and i won't be having the chance to see her smile again...haixz..
hahaxz even i very enjoy talk with him just now singing,laughing all the way..very enjoy,thanks for to be my listener dude....hope you can be with your gf forever ya......you have my blessing.....
Saturday, 19 March 2011
miss her...
to say it's hard for me to stop message you,it's hard for me to stop thinking of you....my friends said for now what you do,she won't appreciate le,what for you do so much le,useless right stop all this and take a deep breath...when thing all settle then you gak think le......
For now to really stop i will force myself to stop le,even it's hard but i will try.....for now what i should do is put all of this thing aside and strive towards my goal: success in build big the network of insaan,improve and continue improve myself to be more adult like,able to think more like an adult,so i can protect the one i love....
i plan after june,when they back from taiwan i will go back find her,that time i will chase her back,to say for so many things happen between us,to me i think is god want us both to grow up,to test whether our love can last forever so we able to have a more stable relationship.i will take up the challenge even it's hard for not contact the one you love for 3 month more..1 word i just so miss her.eventhough she miss other guy now but i know when all things settle down le...she will gradually forget the guy...since she herself know that she have no future with that guy.....
i love choygin so much.....i hope in future i can protect her,i love her again....i will chase you back but now i want to put it aside even im forcing myself,no matter how you hurt me,i also forgive you le not because i want you back is because lou gong will always forgive lou po eh....,and i know i love you...maybe it needs a lot of time but i know i will wait till the day you will say lou gong i love you...i will love you and hug you,hold your hand still the day i have my last breath......我爱你陈彩银
i just so miss you.........
For now to really stop i will force myself to stop le,even it's hard but i will try.....for now what i should do is put all of this thing aside and strive towards my goal: success in build big the network of insaan,improve and continue improve myself to be more adult like,able to think more like an adult,so i can protect the one i love....
i plan after june,when they back from taiwan i will go back find her,that time i will chase her back,to say for so many things happen between us,to me i think is god want us both to grow up,to test whether our love can last forever so we able to have a more stable relationship.i will take up the challenge even it's hard for not contact the one you love for 3 month more..1 word i just so miss her.eventhough she miss other guy now but i know when all things settle down le...she will gradually forget the guy...since she herself know that she have no future with that guy.....
i love choygin so much.....i hope in future i can protect her,i love her again....i will chase you back but now i want to put it aside even im forcing myself,no matter how you hurt me,i also forgive you le not because i want you back is because lou gong will always forgive lou po eh....,and i know i love you...maybe it needs a lot of time but i know i will wait till the day you will say lou gong i love you...i will love you and hug you,hold your hand still the day i have my last breath......我爱你陈彩银
TIRED
wao last night badminton early in the morning....join with amway eh people play,wao....like they say i going to hand shake like a vibrator,and my buttock will pain like hell...hahaxz...just wake up and i feel the pain.....n whole body pain lar.....wao.....later afternoon still have to help vct carry is super large TV......faint but nevermind lah train my muscle......wkakakaxz
Last night so siok,when i take off my shirt my sister so shock she ask where is that fat lump of yours,i say which one,and i just realise that it's gone wao........song gak pua si nia...i able to thin gak ane wkakakaxz......but still have progress to go lah......fit body im coming hehexz...
I now physically and mentally tired le,physically is that,mentally is because of the girl i love,im wondering why she can love a guy till so haizx...me and her on for so long and just a month the guy makes her so haixz.....maybe im jealous lah,but aikxz....im just her friends ba....even my heart said go do something for her but as what my friendssaid stop all of this le,let you and her space d.she and that guy will soon separate jor eh...maybe is my jealousy doing things ba.im also not ssure just one thing i do miss her a lot,miss her cg a lot...even im tired le but i still miss her.....haixz...
Last night so siok,when i take off my shirt my sister so shock she ask where is that fat lump of yours,i say which one,and i just realise that it's gone wao........song gak pua si nia...i able to thin gak ane wkakakaxz......but still have progress to go lah......fit body im coming hehexz...
I now physically and mentally tired le,physically is that,mentally is because of the girl i love,im wondering why she can love a guy till so haizx...me and her on for so long and just a month the guy makes her so haixz.....maybe im jealous lah,but aikxz....im just her friends ba....even my heart said go do something for her but as what my friendssaid stop all of this le,let you and her space d.she and that guy will soon separate jor eh...maybe is my jealousy doing things ba.im also not ssure just one thing i do miss her a lot,miss her cg a lot...even im tired le but i still miss her.....haixz...
Friday, 18 March 2011
decided
for now what im going to do is keep on improve myself,i will gambate to become a true man....jt thanks ya....thx for your message.....i will save in my hp always.(love shudnt always cum out frm mouth but frm ur heart..it's useless 4 standing up high n telling the world how much u lov heror how deep is ur love..be a true man..learn frm the past..)thx jin tsae.....gam xia...hahaxzx.....
for now me n her need rest le..a very long rest...le...but when time suitable i will go back find her.....just what i hope is it is not too late.......let time cure what happen between us.....i hope between this time i will change into a more suitable guy for u....where i can really think like an adult le..no more childish thinking..i love you....cg...hope when things back to normal...i still have the chance......to love you again.....
for now me n her need rest le..a very long rest...le...but when time suitable i will go back find her.....just what i hope is it is not too late.......let time cure what happen between us.....i hope between this time i will change into a more suitable guy for u....where i can really think like an adult le..no more childish thinking..i love you....cg...hope when things back to normal...i still have the chance......to love you again.....
bowling day.....(^v^)
man man let the ball roll,sai......
enjoy playing with them lah...so nice...enjoy nia.hahaxz....
Thursday, 17 March 2011
stupid is me......
to say just listen back this song and watc back the MV,i just realise that 背对背拥抱is such sad song.....and she want me sing to her....im too stupid to realise le....too late to realise why she ask me to sing this song.....hahaxz...chin soon keep on ask me why i will sing such song to her eh,i just answer him easily,because she ask loh..i never think before why she will ask me to sing such song anyway.hahaxz.....i just realise in this relationship i just blindly love her what thing i also dont really care hahaxz....many things i need to change,many thing i need to find out,hahaxz...i think there are still a lot of things that my stupidity blind me off......
just after i finish watching this MV,i just keep on laugh at myself.how can i be so stupid??i also don't know how to answer myself...way to do is realise it early and change........
all i can do is this le....
just after i finish watching this MV,i just keep on laugh at myself.how can i be so stupid??i also don't know how to answer myself...way to do is realise it early and change........
all i can do is this le....
thx choon lin.........my brother
如果你已經20歲了，你真的輸不起了，別再孩子了.....
如果你到了20歲，還沒到25歲 。 ——李開復
這篇文章是一把刀。看得人心疼，看得人心痛。
如果你已經過了20歲但還不到25歲的話，你必須找到除了愛情之外，能夠使你用雙腳堅強
站在大地上的東西。你要找到謀生的方式。現在考慮不晚了。
我從來不以為學歷有什麼重要，天才都不是科班，但，不是科班，連龍套都跑不了。
你必須把那些浮如飄絮的思緒，漸漸轉化為清晰的思路和簡單的文字。
華麗和漂浮都不易長久。你要知道，給予文字閱讀快感不夠的，
內容，思想，境界，靈魂，精神和智慧，這些才重要。
不要多看那些和你一個路數的女作家的文字。不要瑣碎，無病呻吟。
不要想到什麼就寫。不要流連於小感傷和小感動。
我要你相信溫暖，美好，信任，尊嚴，堅強這些老掉牙的字眼。
我不要你頹廢，空虛，迷茫，糟踐自己，傷害別人。
我不要你把自己處理得一團糟。
節制自己的感情並且珍惜它，明白這種感情不是任何人都能要。
千萬不要認同那些偽裝的酷和另類。
他們是無事可做的人找出來放任自己無事可做的藉口，真正的酷是在內心。
你要有強大的內心。
要有任憑時間流逝，不會磨折和屈服的信念。
不是因為在學校的象牙塔中，才說出我愛世界這樣的話，
是知道外面的黑，髒，醜陋之後，還要說出這樣的話。
好好去愛，去生活。青春如此短暫，不要歎老。
偶爾可以停下來休息，但是別蹲下來張望。
走了一條路的時候，記得別回頭看。時不時問問自己，自己在幹嘛?
傷心和委屈的時候，要嚎啕大哭。哭完洗完臉，拍拍自己的臉，擠出一個微笑給自己看。
不要揉，否則第二天早上會眼睛腫。
給自己一個遠大的前程和目標。記得常常仰望天空。記住仰望天空的時候也看看腳下。
任何時候，任何人問你，有過多少次戀愛，答案是兩次。
一次是他愛我，我不愛他。一次是我愛他，他不愛我。
好的愛情永遠在下一次。別給同一個人兩次傷害你的機會。
不要與浪子，文藝青年交往，別和沒心沒肺的人在一起，別和沒有正當職業混日子的人在
一起。別把犯賤當真愛。一個人作踐自己來取悅你的時候，千萬不要因此感動。
一個男人的煙頭燙在他身上，下一個就可能燙在你身上。
同樣的，當這個女人的刀片割斷她的手腕，下次就可能割斷你的。
千萬別相信一個不準備將你介紹給他的朋友圈子的男人。
一個女人只肯喊你“寶貝”的時候，堅持要她喊你的名字，因為你是男人。
一個男人或者女人不再來找你的時候，就不要再去找他或者她。
不要相信在戀愛上用手段的人。分手時不要口出惡言。
吸取教訓，但不要後悔。後悔沒有用。
別去做撕照片，燒信，撕日記這樣一類三流愛情電視劇中才有人幹的事。
相信愛情。相信好男人和好女人還存在，還未婚，還在茫茫人海中尋覓你。
別說“男人(或者女人)沒一個好東西”，這樣使別人誤以為你閱人無數。
愛物質，適當地。永遠知道精神更重要。
比起那些名錶，名牌，時裝，更加美麗的是勤奮而有朝氣的你自己。
如果你20歲以後所花的每一分錢還都是伸手向父母親人要來的，那你的滿身名牌就只能襯
托出你的無恥。別以為穿上名牌你就有品位，要知道如果沒有真正的內涵，騾子配上金鞍
也不會變成駿馬。
你還年輕，先不說開始你的事業，開創你的未來，但你已經成年，至少也要讓自己不再成
為父母的負擔，讓父母看到20年辛苦養育的希望。
無所事事只會把你變成一個廢物，一個被所有其他人鄙夷的廢物，因為這樣的你是一個不
折不扣的寄生蟲。
別以為弄個怪異的髮型，穿上不男不女的衣服，噴上刺鼻的香水，別人就會注重你，
要明白那樣招來的眼光就是別人在看一隻與眾不同的猴子。
許多有教養的人對另類的你的反感並不寫在臉上，但這種反感確鑿無疑肯定會給你帶來極
其不利的後果。
別瞧不起勞動人民。不要為勞動羞恥。土地不髒，汗味不難聞。
請尊重那些似乎生活狀況不如你，但仍然用自己的雙手誠實勞動養家糊口的人，因為這樣
才是尊重自己。永遠體恤那些生活在底層的人們，因為我們的親人就是在這些人群中。
我們不嬌貴。我們必須能夠自己養活自己，這是你的尊嚴所在。
不要小看一分錢。不妨自己去掙掙看。做人有時要強悍一點，被欺負的時候，一定要討回
來！但是不要記恨。小人之見，隨他們去好了。有原則的寬容和憐憫，會使你高貴。
有小心機的女生是可愛的，但別把這種心計用在勾心鬥角上，那樣會很累。
做人不要太高調，高調容易招惹是非。
但也不能太低調，該強悍時則強悍，但切不可咄咄逼人。
被朋友傷害了的時候，別懷疑友情，但提防背叛你的人。原諒，但並不遺忘。
做人存幾分天真童心，對朋友保持一些俠義之情。要快樂，要開朗，要堅韌，要溫暖。
這和性格無關。但你要忠誠，勤奮，要真誠的尊重別人，這樣你的人生才不會黑暗。
寬待自己，也寬待別人。當你不會因為小小的不如意小小的事而生氣或難過的時候，
你會輕鬆很多。
要原諒這個世界和自己。
要告訴自己，我值得擁有最好的一切。
如果你到了20歲，還沒到25歲 。 ——李開復
這篇文章是一把刀。看得人心疼，看得人心痛。
如果你已經過了20歲但還不到25歲的話，你必須找到除了愛情之外，能夠使你用雙腳堅強
站在大地上的東西。你要找到謀生的方式。現在考慮不晚了。
我從來不以為學歷有什麼重要，天才都不是科班，但，不是科班，連龍套都跑不了。
你必須把那些浮如飄絮的思緒，漸漸轉化為清晰的思路和簡單的文字。
華麗和漂浮都不易長久。你要知道，給予文字閱讀快感不夠的，
內容，思想，境界，靈魂，精神和智慧，這些才重要。
不要多看那些和你一個路數的女作家的文字。不要瑣碎，無病呻吟。
不要想到什麼就寫。不要流連於小感傷和小感動。
我要你相信溫暖，美好，信任，尊嚴，堅強這些老掉牙的字眼。
我不要你頹廢，空虛，迷茫，糟踐自己，傷害別人。
我不要你把自己處理得一團糟。
節制自己的感情並且珍惜它，明白這種感情不是任何人都能要。
千萬不要認同那些偽裝的酷和另類。
他們是無事可做的人找出來放任自己無事可做的藉口，真正的酷是在內心。
你要有強大的內心。
要有任憑時間流逝，不會磨折和屈服的信念。
不是因為在學校的象牙塔中，才說出我愛世界這樣的話，
是知道外面的黑，髒，醜陋之後，還要說出這樣的話。
好好去愛，去生活。青春如此短暫，不要歎老。
偶爾可以停下來休息，但是別蹲下來張望。
走了一條路的時候，記得別回頭看。時不時問問自己，自己在幹嘛?
傷心和委屈的時候，要嚎啕大哭。哭完洗完臉，拍拍自己的臉，擠出一個微笑給自己看。
不要揉，否則第二天早上會眼睛腫。
給自己一個遠大的前程和目標。記得常常仰望天空。記住仰望天空的時候也看看腳下。
任何時候，任何人問你，有過多少次戀愛，答案是兩次。
一次是他愛我，我不愛他。一次是我愛他，他不愛我。
好的愛情永遠在下一次。別給同一個人兩次傷害你的機會。
不要與浪子，文藝青年交往，別和沒心沒肺的人在一起，別和沒有正當職業混日子的人在
一起。別把犯賤當真愛。一個人作踐自己來取悅你的時候，千萬不要因此感動。
一個男人的煙頭燙在他身上，下一個就可能燙在你身上。
同樣的，當這個女人的刀片割斷她的手腕，下次就可能割斷你的。
千萬別相信一個不準備將你介紹給他的朋友圈子的男人。
一個女人只肯喊你“寶貝”的時候，堅持要她喊你的名字，因為你是男人。
一個男人或者女人不再來找你的時候，就不要再去找他或者她。
不要相信在戀愛上用手段的人。分手時不要口出惡言。
吸取教訓，但不要後悔。後悔沒有用。
別去做撕照片，燒信，撕日記這樣一類三流愛情電視劇中才有人幹的事。
相信愛情。相信好男人和好女人還存在，還未婚，還在茫茫人海中尋覓你。
別說“男人(或者女人)沒一個好東西”，這樣使別人誤以為你閱人無數。
愛物質，適當地。永遠知道精神更重要。
比起那些名錶，名牌，時裝，更加美麗的是勤奮而有朝氣的你自己。
如果你20歲以後所花的每一分錢還都是伸手向父母親人要來的，那你的滿身名牌就只能襯
托出你的無恥。別以為穿上名牌你就有品位，要知道如果沒有真正的內涵，騾子配上金鞍
也不會變成駿馬。
你還年輕，先不說開始你的事業，開創你的未來，但你已經成年，至少也要讓自己不再成
為父母的負擔，讓父母看到20年辛苦養育的希望。
無所事事只會把你變成一個廢物，一個被所有其他人鄙夷的廢物，因為這樣的你是一個不
折不扣的寄生蟲。
別以為弄個怪異的髮型，穿上不男不女的衣服，噴上刺鼻的香水，別人就會注重你，
要明白那樣招來的眼光就是別人在看一隻與眾不同的猴子。
許多有教養的人對另類的你的反感並不寫在臉上，但這種反感確鑿無疑肯定會給你帶來極
其不利的後果。
別瞧不起勞動人民。不要為勞動羞恥。土地不髒，汗味不難聞。
請尊重那些似乎生活狀況不如你，但仍然用自己的雙手誠實勞動養家糊口的人，因為這樣
才是尊重自己。永遠體恤那些生活在底層的人們，因為我們的親人就是在這些人群中。
我們不嬌貴。我們必須能夠自己養活自己，這是你的尊嚴所在。
不要小看一分錢。不妨自己去掙掙看。做人有時要強悍一點，被欺負的時候，一定要討回
來！但是不要記恨。小人之見，隨他們去好了。有原則的寬容和憐憫，會使你高貴。
有小心機的女生是可愛的，但別把這種心計用在勾心鬥角上，那樣會很累。
做人不要太高調，高調容易招惹是非。
但也不能太低調，該強悍時則強悍，但切不可咄咄逼人。
被朋友傷害了的時候，別懷疑友情，但提防背叛你的人。原諒，但並不遺忘。
做人存幾分天真童心，對朋友保持一些俠義之情。要快樂，要開朗，要堅韌，要溫暖。
這和性格無關。但你要忠誠，勤奮，要真誠的尊重別人，這樣你的人生才不會黑暗。
寬待自己，也寬待別人。當你不會因為小小的不如意小小的事而生氣或難過的時候，
你會輕鬆很多。
要原諒這個世界和自己。
要告訴自己，我值得擁有最好的一切。
heart closed
to say i never thought together with you will make you feel so tired,i know it's all too late,my temper no good.i tried to change,and i have change..i want to learn how to become a good BF,i so i've learned.i want you to be happy but i too selfish,never stand behalf on you think for you.and last time i force myself to change but end up i dint change,and where now i can say the jaysen that very gao kapsiao very gao joke eh still the same,just i will be more like an adult in facing problem..i want to have a strong relationship,a serious relationship with you.i won't be the jaysen that you know..
to say i really don't know why i will love you so much eh,cg.i can't figure out the answer.my heart knows the answer but i don't know..just i so love you.for now we just have a long rest le..for now put don't all thing that have pass,strive for our future...that's what in my mind....
i don't want be like form4,become a playboy,play girls feeling le.im a childish person eh....i took a relationship seriously..so for now i close my heart..i won't open it for anyone le...even i open i think end up i just play the girl feeling...so i rather close my heart now...maybe like i said to you if we do really break,i want to be single le....i think i will..
i don't know you will see this or not,i love you CG,but for now we need to cool down le.maybe months or years.i just hope when i find you again,i still have a slot in your heart...hope i wont too late.....彩银我爱你，我对不起你.
to say i really don't know why i will love you so much eh,cg.i can't figure out the answer.my heart knows the answer but i don't know..just i so love you.for now we just have a long rest le..for now put don't all thing that have pass,strive for our future...that's what in my mind....
i don't want be like form4,become a playboy,play girls feeling le.im a childish person eh....i took a relationship seriously..so for now i close my heart..i won't open it for anyone le...even i open i think end up i just play the girl feeling...so i rather close my heart now...maybe like i said to you if we do really break,i want to be single le....i think i will..
i don't know you will see this or not,i love you CG,but for now we need to cool down le.maybe months or years.i just hope when i find you again,i still have a slot in your heart...hope i wont too late.....彩银我爱你，我对不起你.
im still so weak...
爱了你五年，但真真获 得你的爱只有这一年又八个月。
这五年来，我对你的爱不曾变过，我也不知道为何我会如此的爱你，我也不知到为何。
五年了，我真的以为我能与你白头到老。真的没想到等了这样久，我也输了。
在我一生，学业上没有很出色，运动上也不是很好，为一获得你的认同，是让我觉得我最满足的事，因为我终于等到你了。
在这一个月，我很怕你会没有朋友陪，因为你的好友全都个有个的忙，不能陪你。之所以我会让你朋友知到这样他们能陪在你身旁，安慰你那你就不会那么闷，我真的没想过我的担心会换来你对我的厌倦。
i just hope that your friends will able to accompany you more,in this period of time.in this period of time i know most of your friends,i really happy to be friends with them.i really don't know,it will lead me to this problem.
in this period you have khee lung to accompany you,while i don't have,aaron gone to kl,vincent melvin shao jie them all avoid me because im running sales...the pain i have to keep it in my heart,i turns it into strength even it do hurt me a lot....cause i know it can make me grow up,i have learn not to escape from problem..i face more problem than what you having now...i have to stand alone,face it alone....the stress is far more great then yours so i still able to bring out the smile even it got bit bitter....every night i have to cover my face,hear music because i scare i will stress out and cry again..im not that strong eh...im a very soft guy...
if making friends with your friends and tell them the problem that we facing is a problem to you,i will stop be friends with them....i will stop everything,you know your word make me cry very long time just right after i saw your message...everytime i at your back help you up,i so scare..i so scare will let you know and you feel i so irritating..my intension is just to help you so you wont be that bored....
Choy Gin,sorry..i never think it will make you feel so eh....i will leave you le....eventhough is very hurting me...very hurt....but thanks for colour up my life let me feel what is the feel of love where i can truely love you with all my hearts....i wish you can be happy...kay...i love you...我爱你陈彩银 i love you always,even i always said i so regret enter form6,but if not form6 i won't have the chance to love you for this 1year and 8month.....so i never regret...never regret loving you
这五年来，我对你的爱不曾变过，我也不知道为何我会如此的爱你，我也不知到为何。
五年了，我真的以为我能与你白头到老。真的没想到等了这样久，我也输了。
在我一生，学业上没有很出色，运动上也不是很好，为一获得你的认同，是让我觉得我最满足的事，因为我终于等到你了。
在这一个月，我很怕你会没有朋友陪，因为你的好友全都个有个的忙，不能陪你。之所以我会让你朋友知到这样他们能陪在你身旁，安慰你那你就不会那么闷，我真的没想过我的担心会换来你对我的厌倦。
i just hope that your friends will able to accompany you more,in this period of time.in this period of time i know most of your friends,i really happy to be friends with them.i really don't know,it will lead me to this problem.
in this period you have khee lung to accompany you,while i don't have,aaron gone to kl,vincent melvin shao jie them all avoid me because im running sales...the pain i have to keep it in my heart,i turns it into strength even it do hurt me a lot....cause i know it can make me grow up,i have learn not to escape from problem..i face more problem than what you having now...i have to stand alone,face it alone....the stress is far more great then yours so i still able to bring out the smile even it got bit bitter....every night i have to cover my face,hear music because i scare i will stress out and cry again..im not that strong eh...im a very soft guy...
if making friends with your friends and tell them the problem that we facing is a problem to you,i will stop be friends with them....i will stop everything,you know your word make me cry very long time just right after i saw your message...everytime i at your back help you up,i so scare..i so scare will let you know and you feel i so irritating..my intension is just to help you so you wont be that bored....
Choy Gin,sorry..i never think it will make you feel so eh....i will leave you le....eventhough is very hurting me...very hurt....but thanks for colour up my life let me feel what is the feel of love where i can truely love you with all my hearts....i wish you can be happy...kay...i love you...我爱你陈彩银 i love you always,even i always said i so regret enter form6,but if not form6 i won't have the chance to love you for this 1year and 8month.....so i never regret...never regret loving you
Wednesday, 16 March 2011
time...all it needs is time......
to say when a person tempt to open heart to someone before,its quite hard for the person to remain single??i sometimes vert admire melvin and vct,they able to remain single life,and doesn't think of it also.their life is so easy...nothing to think especially about love..why some human able to prevent this kind of trap?while some will fall into this traphole??to say there aren't any comfirm answer for that right?everyone have their own thinking and way of doing things...and even i do seacrh for answerit's useless...hahaxz...i miss her but she??like shao jie mom said...some people they able to find their right partner,while some just able to see who they love holding hands married to another guy..live is like that eh....to say in my heart there only have cg.....it need's time to put it down le....and to say last time when i told her i will become single,i really do mean it.....1st reason is i will wait her again....2nd is i already tired with this stuff le.
to say escape from the current situation is very relaxing eh...but it just makes more problem to me...so i rather face it...it's hard but i willing to....maybe like what my biao ge said....sometimes single can escape from many problem in this world..hahaxz...he tend to remain single after all....i don't really what's the story at the back of this...whyhe will think in such way....but remain single lah...maybe just as jeffery said both of us needs time to relax n grow up ba...but until now i think im the one growing up while she still remain on the same spot...aikxz i wish i can help her out but for the current situation i'm unable to do anything ba...haixz...so sad when you have to see the one you love like that you know....like letting her go to die ane.....aikxz....really headache loh....but atleast it makes me feel more better le....changing my thoughts into writing.....more relax lah hahaxzx....
hope i able to cope with this situation lah......
to say escape from the current situation is very relaxing eh...but it just makes more problem to me...so i rather face it...it's hard but i willing to....maybe like what my biao ge said....sometimes single can escape from many problem in this world..hahaxz...he tend to remain single after all....i don't really what's the story at the back of this...whyhe will think in such way....but remain single lah...maybe just as jeffery said both of us needs time to relax n grow up ba...but until now i think im the one growing up while she still remain on the same spot...aikxz i wish i can help her out but for the current situation i'm unable to do anything ba...haixz...so sad when you have to see the one you love like that you know....like letting her go to die ane.....aikxz....really headache loh....but atleast it makes me feel more better le....changing my thoughts into writing.....more relax lah hahaxzx....
hope i able to cope with this situation lah......
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
importent person that enter my life....
since when im small....i think i never tasted the love of grandparents...this two person let me feel it....
warm hearted..
haha popo that care me so much.....make me feel so warm....the type of care that i never felt before.....she care me sometimes will call me ask me how im doing now....to say beside my family i never feel so warm before.when things happen they so care me ask me eat,don't do stupid things,give me courage to chase cg back.thanks for your advice while in GMC..hahaxz...really thanks ya popo.....you so kind..
cute cute eh......hehexz...ah gong
i feel he so kind...so care of his grandchildren...i always envy cg for having such caring ah gong....he only 60++nia....young le....but im worry about his health....his eye aikxz...lucky nothing..hope that ah gong can live long....what you thought me while in hospital and what you said about cg..i just know 1 thing you really care for me n her..thanks ah gong...i will love you both always...
hahaxz this is cg daddy.....eventhough until now i talk with him maybe not even more than 100 words i think....hahaxz...but i know uncle is a good person...eventhough he is strict....in someway that cg dislike but...thats how parents do to protect their love one's....uncle style a bit same like my dad....don't really like to speak so much hahaxz...the 1st time i saw you..this the 1st impression you give me....
ei this is cg 1st sister....pretty is it??my sis say so hahax....1st time see her...cg toh say..dont be like her bf ane 'la pu' kay.....i dont know what is the meaning of 'la pu' guan lai is lansi hahaxz....but i can feel she very loyal to her bf..so i very admire her....with that face there are sure many people chase her eh....but she still so love her 'la pu' bf..haha....thumbs up..thanks for helping me out sometimes
to say if without her....i will never have the chance to meet so many people...if not her i wouldn't have grown up,if not her i wouldn't know how to cherish the person i love....if not her i won't be an adult now.....if not her i won't try something thats i dislike.....if not her i won't know the feeling of true love.....i just so miss her smile,i miss the moment she manja with me,i miss her smell that left in my room...i miss the smile,the true smile that she once smile before me...because of her my life fill with all types of emotion,i never truely so love a person before and there she is....when time we break...i thought i will never be able to see her again thanks for her mom keep on creating chance for me to meet her up....i just hope to see her smile once more....to see her laugh where all her teeth shine bright....i miss the moment so much....i love you so much....i just so hope that khee lung will disappear and you wll be able to open your heart once more to me...let me love you again....lou gong really miss you so much....i love you....
why i so want you to grow up,want you to move forward,you know why??cause i know if you stop moving forward,i will never going to see you smile to me again....thats the reason why.i angry when i see you stop moving forward..i just want to see you smile to me again....
warm hearted..
i feel he so kind...so care of his grandchildren...i always envy cg for having such caring ah gong....he only 60++nia....young le....but im worry about his health....his eye aikxz...lucky nothing..hope that ah gong can live long....what you thought me while in hospital and what you said about cg..i just know 1 thing you really care for me n her..thanks ah gong...i will love you both always...
both also sleeping geh??ask the photgrapher lah....
this is cg mom....
to say the in this period of time when i break up with cg,thanks aunty for encouraging me...give me support,teach me a lot of things...you like a 2nd mother to me....hehexz...thanks for all the advice you gave me...and thanks for the caring..is aunty who make me felt that what parent love's is so pure..purer than anything..that's why i now so willing to hear what my mom advice d....thx ya...thanks for making chances for me to see cg more...i really hope i can be your daughter husband....so can take care both of you....thanks for everything...
ei so rude eh.....she just form4 this year hahaxz...her height??guess kua...shorter than me hehexz...let her see tiok i sure kena eh....hahaxz...she got a bit tomboy nu....but sometimes i can feel the girly nature inside her....so hard to guess....when i ask her u lasbian meh??no lah.....then??normal lah....hard to determine leh...but i believe she wont be lass ba...she like a little sister to me i so like to kacau her on fb eh....
why i so want you to grow up,want you to move forward,you know why??cause i know if you stop moving forward,i will never going to see you smile to me again....thats the reason why.i angry when i see you stop moving forward..i just want to see you smile to me again....
first time in my whole life i cook for a girl that i love so much...
see she trying to pierce me with that knife OMG.........
i wont forget that day my back wao.....pain like hell.........i dnt knw hw many hour i stand there just to cook....
so happy both so give me face....come 'pong chan' me this in training chef...hehexz...po po give me guidance.
i love you so much.....its my fault to lose this chance...is me who let it go....what i hope deepest in my heart is bii you be able to smile to me like once you smile to me....again...i miss it so much....i hope i can cook for your next birthday....
*lou po i love you so much....i love you always even now....
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