april coming le....why i still miss you??

you today start work,i so worried...last night i chat with choon lin till 5am...from our conversation,i know i still so care and love her...

七情六欲，我败给了情,but to say i don't know why i will so love you choy gin,even maybe for you now in your mind just the guy is the best,what he do for you will make you touch,i last night saw ur post(当初你就这样毫无预警的闯进了我的世界，但现在你又静悄悄的走了...) i hope it will be me,but i know this post is meant for that guy,when i saw this post i just so sad..nothing i can do more...

haha,sometimes i feel im such a failure,i lose you twice in my life le,on tues when i go over your house i never think i still will have tear drop for you,i promise myself to be strong,don't cry infront of you,but i just can't stand it...just cg,my hearts is soft even i act strong.to face this world,to face the reality that i lost you le...

i try to educate you in the way i learn,the way i grow up.maybe in my heart somehow there are jealousy that makes me tell your parent about that guy,when sinyen said when you tell her parent,i just so blame myself,i cause this suffer on you,maybe you will never love me le,maybe you will hate me,maybe in your mind im disturbing you and that guy.cg im sorry.sorry because of my selfishness.that cause you to suffer like this...you can blame me,you can hate me,but 1 word im sorry..im just so sorry.

haixz...i don't dare to think that you will love me again,because 1 of the reason to cause you so suffer is me.i don't dare to ask so much le.i love you ,i miss you but i know you will never love me again,nor miss me again..im trying hard to put down all the things d,4 years le,i love you so much..from the day i said i love you,i do really love you with all my hearts until now,the love in me towards you still so fresh.maybe i need time to recover my wound,when thing long le,i maybe able to put down everything.to start over.you are the girl i love so much,more then my 1st.i have a lot of things want to do with you,when last night me n choon lin plan want go KL play,i hope to bring you along,but i know we won't be having the chance le,since you going taiwan also,even you dint go taiwan,you also won't going with me le,among me,aaron,choon lin and chin soon,all have gf only me dont't have...means i go do light bulb..hahazx...haixz...

i just so miss you cg,i miss you so much....and im really really sorry....